I never had friends irl. I don't know what to be of my future. I'm dumb, I can't breathe correctly and bad issues on frail body which haunted me all my life. I can do stuff in my mind but that's not useful, just to cope. Now I just watch as everyone goes to do stuff I never can do. 0 people skills, 0 appearance, and ppl like us just rot. I found out my IQ is very spiky, which means I'm clinically retarded. The health issues and that, why even be born. Porn is starting to be depressing too but porn, sexy anime and AI are the only copes I have right now. I don't like at how people were good at life more, just makes me angry really. They don't deserve it and take it all for granted when they have it natural, but thats life so 
