I'm more conviced than ever that the only way out for me is killing myself, I took more pictures today with the back camera of my phone to see how people see my face, it's over, my face is deformed in my right side, and for some reason it seems it only got worse, I don't know why but my cheekbone on the right side of my face is way higher than my left side, JFL in gymceling, spending money on orthodontic treatmeants when none of that can help me, my face is already deformed my only hope would be surgerymaxxx but after I was fired all my hopes are ashes now, I just keep finding deformites in my face, recessed chin, bad eye area, balding, can't grow beard, bulbus nose from distant ethinic genes, non existent jaw.
Like my hopes I will burn coal in my room, close all the air vents and go for a sleep, I waited for my parents to leave the house and go do something that will take a long time, my only concearn it's to not burn my house, I don't want to cause any damage to my parents life style, they don't deserve this, if only I was born with their good genes and not the trash ones everything could have been different, I would had friends, relationships, I would have know what is to be wanted, to be cared and loved.
No one deserves to be humiliated all his life, trying to perceived thinking that better days will come, pray for every god he can imagine and the ones that others imagined for him and still don't have a answer for this nightmare, you think people judging you by your appearance and making you the joke for all stops in school? Think again boy, it never stops, yeah it might be behind your back but people will make you know what is going on, who is the lowest in the hirarchy, you, the trash genes, I endured it all, thinking that the secret is to be patient, and everytime they kick me down something inside me changed, making me almost go ER sometimes.
You think I was bad person? I wasn't, yeah I posted some heavy shit here but never done harm to anyone, you can call me a cuck but I even done voluntary work sometimes, every winter campaign to give clothes for poor familys were I worked I helped, when beggars asked me money I don't give to them but the few times they asked me to buy food I bought for them, the people that humiliated me and phisically harmed me? I never done anything bad to them even tho I wanted, dear fucking gods how I wanted, I'm the only male son of my parents, they are old, my sisters abandoned us and have gone to live with their top tier normies wagecucks, I'm the one helping my parents to have a better life, while all the other people make fun of my face and just shows hate towards me.
I'm tired man, I'm really fucking tired of all this, or maybe is the coal, I don't know, at least is warm, maybe I am bad, words do have a big impact in our life and I writed some "awful" things here, the difference is that I know this more than any cuck who might be reading this, but whats the point anyway? Cucks will always hate us and never try to understand what make someone get where we are, incels will only be more depressed and hateful about everyone while deep down we are desperate for someone to extend a hand make us feel like a human, normies will just joke about everything and give likes to inspirational quotes in their normiebooks, chads will fuck and thats it.
Do you think the normies in my last workplace will feel guilty?
I bet if somehow they end up knowing the most accurate reaction would be a "Oops, we might have gone a little far, nah who cares? He should not cared so much about jokes.", danm normies sure are good in making others the vilans of their own stories, but maybe they are right, I should not care if looks is what made me so depressed and hopeless, I should not give a fuck if looks made me have been bullied and not having one friend from school, to high school then college, to never knew what is to feel a girl falling in love with you, HaHa love is underrated anyways, right guys??
This is something I never understand in these normies "advices", there always is one cuck saying "I don't know why incels care so much about having someone, I'm perfectly fine alone.", this is clearly someone coping hard, but can this person really say something like this whit a serious face? Can they really be serious about this? Even if by a miracle is that easy for them, are we going to ignore all the forms of art that were only possible to be expressed because of the feelings from a intimate relationship between two people, can they really judge the importance of that feeling from someone when they never cared for it? Don't they ever have dreams where a girl hug them and you feel that this world might not be so bad, and then you wake up knowing that the best feeling you had in ages never existed in reality. Nah I don't care as well, fuck it love, fuck it life, fuck it everything, "Oh my god, don't this inkels know about prostitutes??" Yeah, tell me what dirty slum your father found your mom you shity cuck, I would love a whore from there as well.
I wish I could resolve this with my own will, but I can't and this is the main problem, I made it here trough my own will, despite I never being part of something, I could never belong to social group, I can't see my face in good places where people are happy and feeling well, I can't think how I could laugh and enjoy the company of others when they need to enjoy mine as well, any human being would get tired of all this after so much time suffering, a candle can't burn forever you know, neither do coal, but I hope it last long enough.
Like my hopes I will burn coal in my room, close all the air vents and go for a sleep, I waited for my parents to leave the house and go do something that will take a long time, my only concearn it's to not burn my house, I don't want to cause any damage to my parents life style, they don't deserve this, if only I was born with their good genes and not the trash ones everything could have been different, I would had friends, relationships, I would have know what is to be wanted, to be cared and loved.
No one deserves to be humiliated all his life, trying to perceived thinking that better days will come, pray for every god he can imagine and the ones that others imagined for him and still don't have a answer for this nightmare, you think people judging you by your appearance and making you the joke for all stops in school? Think again boy, it never stops, yeah it might be behind your back but people will make you know what is going on, who is the lowest in the hirarchy, you, the trash genes, I endured it all, thinking that the secret is to be patient, and everytime they kick me down something inside me changed, making me almost go ER sometimes.
You think I was bad person? I wasn't, yeah I posted some heavy shit here but never done harm to anyone, you can call me a cuck but I even done voluntary work sometimes, every winter campaign to give clothes for poor familys were I worked I helped, when beggars asked me money I don't give to them but the few times they asked me to buy food I bought for them, the people that humiliated me and phisically harmed me? I never done anything bad to them even tho I wanted, dear fucking gods how I wanted, I'm the only male son of my parents, they are old, my sisters abandoned us and have gone to live with their top tier normies wagecucks, I'm the one helping my parents to have a better life, while all the other people make fun of my face and just shows hate towards me.
I'm tired man, I'm really fucking tired of all this, or maybe is the coal, I don't know, at least is warm, maybe I am bad, words do have a big impact in our life and I writed some "awful" things here, the difference is that I know this more than any cuck who might be reading this, but whats the point anyway? Cucks will always hate us and never try to understand what make someone get where we are, incels will only be more depressed and hateful about everyone while deep down we are desperate for someone to extend a hand make us feel like a human, normies will just joke about everything and give likes to inspirational quotes in their normiebooks, chads will fuck and thats it.
Do you think the normies in my last workplace will feel guilty?
I bet if somehow they end up knowing the most accurate reaction would be a "Oops, we might have gone a little far, nah who cares? He should not cared so much about jokes.", danm normies sure are good in making others the vilans of their own stories, but maybe they are right, I should not care if looks is what made me so depressed and hopeless, I should not give a fuck if looks made me have been bullied and not having one friend from school, to high school then college, to never knew what is to feel a girl falling in love with you, HaHa love is underrated anyways, right guys??This is something I never understand in these normies "advices", there always is one cuck saying "I don't know why incels care so much about having someone, I'm perfectly fine alone.", this is clearly someone coping hard, but can this person really say something like this whit a serious face? Can they really be serious about this? Even if by a miracle is that easy for them, are we going to ignore all the forms of art that were only possible to be expressed because of the feelings from a intimate relationship between two people, can they really judge the importance of that feeling from someone when they never cared for it? Don't they ever have dreams where a girl hug them and you feel that this world might not be so bad, and then you wake up knowing that the best feeling you had in ages never existed in reality. Nah I don't care as well, fuck it love, fuck it life, fuck it everything, "Oh my god, don't this inkels know about prostitutes??" Yeah, tell me what dirty slum your father found your mom you shity cuck, I would love a whore from there as well.
I wish I could resolve this with my own will, but I can't and this is the main problem, I made it here trough my own will, despite I never being part of something, I could never belong to social group, I can't see my face in good places where people are happy and feeling well, I can't think how I could laugh and enjoy the company of others when they need to enjoy mine as well, any human being would get tired of all this after so much time suffering, a candle can't burn forever you know, neither do coal, but I hope it last long enough.
