Friendship is a social construct that isn't even real, we as a gender will always strive to eat eachother if we got the chance,
I realized it doesn't matter if you're blackpilled or how far you've been blackpilled, everyone has this innate shit chimp instincts coded in our genes, from niggers to wypipo to chinks to sandniggers to currymonkeys, it doesn't matter, inside every human lies a nigger chimping out
We're horrible and failed as a species as much as any other lowly animal roaming this earth.
it's an illusion your brain makes, it's all really just your ape mind craving for security and comfort
Sometimes I think that maybe I never had any friends my entire life, even the blackpilled incel ones, surely not on this forum or online.
Maybe it's impossible for one to have a friendship?
The more I grow older, the more these things like love, friendship and other human concepts and thought/emotion constructs seem absurd to me, friendship however is different because I can't tell that I don't have friends, I just don't have any "real" friends, most if not all of them will turn on on you, or will abandon you at some point in your life, this goes hand in hand with schupenhaurian/mainlanderian despodency about the truth of existence and suffer, there is no joy, suffer will always be dominant and will always prevail.
It can't be just because I'm aleinated to real friendship, I tried hard having real friends but it just doesn't work, you will always end up being dissapointed, dissatisfied and wrathful.
With all that being said, I yet still find myself walking to this entrapment, knowing that they won't be "real" friends, knowing that I don't trust them but make no mistake, I'm not a fool
I see it clearly but I just try to benefit from it as much as I can, much as they try to do.
I can't tell how much I'm thinking about ending a life rn, whether it's mine or others.
