RageFuel envy can ruin my life

[Chingaquedito]

two years ago a friend of mine showed off his girlfriend to me, I really couldn't believe it, she looked like the kind of girl I always idealized as a perfect woman physically, and he wasn't even handsome.
The bastard showed me videos of they two having sex.

this made me feel a brutal envy and depression for months, during which I slept very little, about 4 or 5 hours a day, and the first thing I thought about every morning was her face, I couldn't play video games, or watch movies without thinking about her, my body ached due to the lack of rest, sometimes I woke up at night thinking about her, dreaming about her, it was fucking crazy

this is one of the worst experiences i have ever lived, i still remember the things they said in those video, and i try carefully not to use those words in real life to not remember what happened, i remember the months when it happened, i recorded videos of myself walking down the street, now i watch those videos again and i am surprised how calmly i walk while my mind was shattered by what happened, I don't know how I got out of it

now i understand elliot's envy, and the things he says in his manifesto, like crying or screaming after talking to sex havers, this experience was one of the worst i have ever lived

 

[Linesnap99]

dont forget to use the rope next time u meet him

 

[MACHETE]

use the envy to fuel your looksmaxxing journey. It workz for me

Also smoke weed everyday

 

[Luxury]

Mogs me for having a friend... That is brutal tho

 

[Emba]

dont forget to use the garrote next time u meet him

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

This was the mental state I entered after swallowing the "racepill".

this made me feel a brutal envy and depression for months, during which I slept very little, about 4 or 5 hours a day, and the first thing I thought about every morning was her face, I couldn't play video games, or watch movies without thinking about her, my body ached due to the lack of rest, sometimes I woke up at night thinking about her, dreaming about her, it was fucking crazy

now i understand elliot's envy, and the things he says in his manifesto, like crying or screaming after talking to sex havers, this experience was one of the worst i have ever lived

Did you often cringe and envision yourself surrounded by her and the people who viewed you as a "lesser being"?

 

[Chingaquedito]

This was the mental state I entered after swallowing the "racepill".

that happened to you because of envy?

Did you often cringe and envision yourself surrounded by her and the people who viewed you as a "lesser being"?

I feel envy and depressed for knowing that I will never have one like that, that's where the title of my profile comes from, she will never be mine, not today, not tomorrow, not in this life, not in another life (because there is no other life), never.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

that happened to you because of envy?

Yes, sadly.

 

[rottingricecel]

you are right. i think the biggest negative effect the blackpill has on me is envy of which i will never have

 

[Emba]

In Stoicism it's common to distain that which you cannot have.

Notice the pattern ¿

 

[yez]

Nobody can make you traumatized like this. How can you accept this ? ER them right now.

 

[GhostedPhantom]

> friend

 

[Evkakiy]

Your friend cuckold probably likes to watch his girlfriend fuck other guys.

 

[Izayacel]

It Is over

 

[Praise the Sun]

It's impossible to be "friends" with a sexhaver, you're always gonna hate him for not allowing you to fuck his girlfriend.

 

[Caesercel]

The bastard showed me videos of they two having sex.

What a bunch of weirdos