Ek hota hai sabke niche rahna phir hu mai

[Obanchito]

Yet again, I made the grave and fatal mistake of going on insta and checking in on my past acquaintances and lo and behold it appears I'm the only one who's at the bottom of the barrel if not beneath it. Some possess inheritance and don't have to fret over making ends meet in a few years, some made it to medschool and t1 engineering colleges while some have been endowed with beauty that will carry them throughout their lives.
And then there's me, pursuing a degree with prospects waning every year, being hideous (sub4 by Indian standards) and recently diagnosed with a chronic health condition which is very disruptive to living a normal life and spills over to affecting my diet.
I lie here, on my bed with my stuff in a disorder and my clothes sprawled all over the place ; too worn out to organize them back, too sickly to lift my arm up. I'm the last person who'd contemplate suicide but if I fail to secure the bag by my 30s maybe I'll take it as a sign to check out of my misery considering I'd have run out of things to look forward to.
@SmhChan @Acorn @currycell900 @jeetcel @Redeemer @any gray pajeet who finds this post hitting close to home

 

[Obanchito]

एक बार फिर, मैंने इंस्टाग्राम पर जाकर अपने पुराने परिचितों के बारे में जानने की गंभीर और जानलेवा गलती की और अब लगता है कि मैं ही अकेली हूँ जो सबसे निचले पायदान पर है, अगर उससे भी नीचे नहीं। कुछ लोगों के पास विरासत होती है और उन्हें कुछ सालों में गुज़ारा करने की चिंता नहीं करनी पड़ती, कुछ मेडिकल स्कूल और टी1 इंजीनियरिंग कॉलेज में पहुँच जाते हैं, जबकि कुछ को ऐसी खूबसूरती मिली है जो उन्हें ज़िंदगी भर साथ देगी। और फिर मैं हूँ, एक डिग्री की पढ़ाई कर रही हूँ जिसकी संभावनाएँ हर साल कम होती जा रही हैं, मैं बदसूरत हूँ (भारतीय मानकों के हिसाब से 4 से कम) और हाल ही में मुझे एक ऐसी गंभीर बीमारी का पता चला है जो सामान्य ज़िंदगी जीने में बहुत बाधा डाल रही है और मेरे खान-पान को भी प्रभावित कर रही है। मैं यहाँ अपने बिस्तर पर लेटी हूँ, मेरा सामान बिखरा पड़ा है और मेरे कपड़े इधर-उधर बिखरे पड़े हैं; मैं इतनी घिसी हुई हूँ कि उन्हें वापस व्यवस्थित नहीं कर सकती, मैं इतनी बीमार हूँ कि हाथ भी नहीं उठा सकती। मैं आखिरी व्यक्ति हूं जो आत्महत्या के बारे में सोचेगा, लेकिन अगर मैं 30 साल की उम्र तक बैग हासिल करने में असफल रहा तो शायद मैं इसे अपने दुख से बाहर निकलने का संकेत मानूंगा, क्योंकि तब मेरे पास आगे देखने के लिए कुछ भी नहीं बचेगा। just to conform to the rules

 

[currycell900]

Kabhi shuru hi nhi hua

 

[SmhChan]

And then there's me, pursuing a degree with prospects waning every year

I abandoned my degree years ago. The lockdown brought luck upon me with a tech job. Of course, I'm not telling you to abandon your degree, but fuck me, in Lundia degrees are now only useful as paper cones for your spicy puffed rice. I just fucking laugh when these JBWs moan about a little competition from curries in their tech industry.

 

[Rapemaxxer]

College kaisa chal raha hai? Koi dost banne? Midsems hue tumhare?

 

[Obanchito]

I abandoned my degree years ago. The lockdown brought luck upon me with a tech job. Of course, I'm not telling you to abandon your degree, but fuck me, in Lundia degrees are now only useful as paper cones for your spicy puffed rice. I just fucking laugh when these JBWs moan about a little competition from curries in their tech industry.

Academicjeets slogging day in and out only to be surpassed by their business inheritor counterparts who didn't even put a teenth of their intellectual effort

 

[Obanchito]

College kaisa chal raha hai?

Horrid

Koi dost banne?

Launde toh 3-4 dost bane

Midsems hue tumhare?

Yes aur semi flunked bhi kardi

Hbu? you should a few months into college yourself by now

 

[Rapemaxxer]

Hbu? you should a few months into college yourself by now

Haan bhai abhi midsems chal rahe hain. Iss city mein hindi log zyada nahi bolte but I've managed to find a circle of peers who are also from the North even though I don't think I can call any of them a friend. Academically it's going okay so far.

 

[Obanchito]

Haan bhai abhi midsems chal rahe hain. Iss city mein hindi log zyada nahi bolte but I've managed to find a circle of peers who are also from the North even though I don't think I can call any of them a friend. Academically it's going okay so far.

Glad to hear that

 

[Redeemer]

Brutal bruh. What is the disease you have?

And then there's me, pursuing a degree with prospects waning every year

Avg btech cse jeetbro. I will pursue the same, but after the useless drop year I took like a cuck to just later end up in tier 69.

It's all even worse when you're the only son.

 

[Obanchito]

Brutal bruh. What is the disease you have?

Can't disclose it and it's sorta embarrassing to say, on top of that

 

[Obanchito]

Avg btech cse jeetbro. I will pursue the same, but after the useless drop year I took like a cuck to just later end up in tier 69.

It's all even worse when you're the only son.

Yeah man, I know it all too well. The way I'm headed I know it full well I'll be entangled in prepping for gabarmint jabs and I'm terrified