The best part of the night was getting back in the car with the cool air and the dark silent night. The rest was just the same old tedious pointlessness. They say the definition of insanity is doing things over and over again expecting them to change.. well by that definition I'm insane.. I've been going out to stupid places at night for a long time. Tonight I decided to go to a couple of pubs, one had an event thing on with a decent amount of people as usual i was pretty much invisible or ignored.. at the end of each night I dont know why I do this to myself but then I eventually go again because I feel like I have to try even if it feels like I could do this for 100 plus years and I'd still never even have as much as a conversation. Who else tortures themselves by going to pubs only to be invisible to females... knowing youl never be enough and only get older is utter hopelessness
