It's Over Drinking again, broke down crying again, erectile dysfunction, lowering bf% successfully, etc

[Ambatukam Alone]

Rewarding myself with some drink since I saw progress after round 1 week of pretty decent effort at weight loss (diet, no cardio yet). One simple "tip" is just to know that you will find it easier and easier to eat less in one meal after like two days (hype!). So, you'll eat like half of what you ate before and get full, DAS RITE!!! Goal for me is 10-12%, I guesstimate I'm at 18-22 or something (hard to tell, my fat tends to be evenly distributed, nothing on the back, not big belly).

On the way out da liquor sto I saw a horrible sight. Masked SEA woman with soyfriend, I actually ripped the doors open going back home since my nervous system was so activated by it. Why can't these people do everything separately and then join up at home after? You need two fucking people to buy wine or whatever? FUCK OFF FROM MY PLANET. I cried whilst eating a meal and was acting psycho. I seem to be able to stop it at will, but the will isn't there much of the time.

Tbh, I feel so screwed over and betrayed. I don't believe in blame, but that's the feeling. I run through my life in my mind briefly, from a little boy craving a gf to a completely destroyed "adult" "man" gasping in utter futility for companionship on his way toward even more hardship and destruction.

 

[wereq]

Its very hard seeing couples out in public. Makes you feel like a failure.

 

[Icarus]

Damn man I'm sorry

 

[Nicusor_delaBraila]

Its very hard seeing couples out in public. Makes you feel like a failure.

its brutal
I only see tall men in couples today even if they sub5
meanwhile I often see short men with no gfs

 

[wereq]

its brutal
I only see tall men in couples today even if they sub5
meanwhile I often see short men with no gfs

I always see this as well.

 

[Nicusor_delaBraila]

I always see this as well.

height overrides your looks

 

[autisticsoy]

Couples will never stop going outside and showing their love. They may or not know how it makes other people feel.

 

[Erenincel]

I have a similar problem but I think there is a solution. our brain is probably torturing itself emotionally greatly increase our suffering. Many of us want revenge but due to zero motivation and high inhibition we are unable to do it (and that is why research shows that we, as incels, are less violent). As I tested it myself, benzodiazepines lower inhibitions to zero level and provide temporary relief but it is dangerous and you can easily become addicted. We are not hostages to our nervous systems, and with the right training or chemistry, we can likely alter our nervous system's relationships enough that, if you see a couple, it will give you additional fuel for the ER or other actions against society. Especially since current states won't be able to function as they do now, there will be a chance for change. We just have to fight for it, and to do that, we need to find a way to change our brain's reactions. With current medicine, we can do that; we just need to figure out how.