They diagnosed me with schizoaffective disorder at 19 because I freaked the fuck out living around niggers in 2018 lol, but I don’t care. Fuck psychiatry it’s time to crash out and have a wild summer. I should lose a lot of weight not being on this poison anymore and then I can see what my actual face looks like again, not this bloated version of it.
They don’t want me to enter psychosis again because they don’t want me to have superpowers. THERE’S NOTHING FOR ME TO FEAR. The first time I was in it I was able to stab myself in the arms and neck with a dull knife hard enough to squirt blood and feel zero pain. Imagine what I could do with that edge to stop being lost in the motions of regular old depression.
Fuck it I’ve gotten nothing to lose anymore as a 26 year old virgin. Even if they take away my disability and I end up homeless it’ll be better than the hell of their chemical lobotomies. Even if I have to deal with insomnia for months because of the withdrawal it’s NoJewPills ever again for me. They’d have to kill me before I get back on them. Even self medication is more effective.
They don’t want me to enter psychosis again because they don’t want me to have superpowers. THERE’S NOTHING FOR ME TO FEAR. The first time I was in it I was able to stab myself in the arms and neck with a dull knife hard enough to squirt blood and feel zero pain. Imagine what I could do with that edge to stop being lost in the motions of regular old depression.
Fuck it I’ve gotten nothing to lose anymore as a 26 year old virgin. Even if they take away my disability and I end up homeless it’ll be better than the hell of their chemical lobotomies. Even if I have to deal with insomnia for months because of the withdrawal it’s NoJewPills ever again for me. They’d have to kill me before I get back on them. Even self medication is more effective.
