I feel like I should've had a lot more university options than I do now. I had a 4.32 GPA in highschool (4.0 unweighted), and almost 1500 on my SAT but after applying to like 10 colleges I got rejected from all but the shittiest most underpopulated one. I'm pretty sure I would've been rejected from that one too but they legally had to allow me in as my GPA was in a certain percentile for guaranteed admission to at least one public university, so they just sent me to the worst one. These weren't even super good schools too, they were just the public universities in my state.
I feel like half the college admissions process is just to screen out incels; they want neurotypical people who had a bunch of extracurricular activities and played sports and showed their leadership skills and shit. I completely lacked all these things so I struggled writing my essays which led to a shit ton of arguments with my parents that lasted for weeks; they didn't hit me but they shoved me and my dad yelled that I made him want to kill himself and would literally start punching his head or slamming it against stuff during fights.
In the end since I basically didn't have a life to write about I just wrote about how I took a leadership position when developing a videogame with my friends and for the essay about struggles I talked about my OCD.
I deferred my one admission so I was able to skip going to college this year and instead have it start next term, but I know I won't be ready to go when that date rolls around, and I can't defer another year so that one opportunity I have is gonna slip away. I also know that my prospects for going to college in the future are gonna be 10x worse if I apply again; they'll count my senior year's GPA, which tanked after I got blackpilled. They'll also expect an explanation for why I took a double gap year, and I don't think LDARing is a good excuse.
I feel like half the college admissions process is just to screen out incels; they want neurotypical people who had a bunch of extracurricular activities and played sports and showed their leadership skills and shit. I completely lacked all these things so I struggled writing my essays which led to a shit ton of arguments with my parents that lasted for weeks; they didn't hit me but they shoved me and my dad yelled that I made him want to kill himself and would literally start punching his head or slamming it against stuff during fights.
In the end since I basically didn't have a life to write about I just wrote about how I took a leadership position when developing a videogame with my friends and for the essay about struggles I talked about my OCD.
I deferred my one admission so I was able to skip going to college this year and instead have it start next term, but I know I won't be ready to go when that date rolls around, and I can't defer another year so that one opportunity I have is gonna slip away. I also know that my prospects for going to college in the future are gonna be 10x worse if I apply again; they'll count my senior year's GPA, which tanked after I got blackpilled. They'll also expect an explanation for why I took a double gap year, and I don't think LDARing is a good excuse.
