I tried typing in “my mind is useless” into google and YouTube and nothing with that specific phrasing came up. I’m 25 years old and my greatest accomplishment is getting a GED. I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder, but I think I could just have undiagnosed autism. They send me letters in the mail from the state court about my outpatient committal with my name and then underneath it the shit says “alleged to be seriously mentally impaired”. 
All because I went psychotic living around niggers back in 2018. I don’t even know if it’s that I’m low IQ cause I think I’m incredibly introspective and look at things from lots of different angles, but when it comes to my self-control or whatever it’s truly subhuman. If I truly feel like doing or not doing something in the present moment there is no way for me to resist. I can try to debate it in my head making as many rational points as possible, but I always get to the point where I just say ‘fuck it!”.
All because I went psychotic living around niggers back in 2018. I don’t even know if it’s that I’m low IQ cause I think I’m incredibly introspective and look at things from lots of different angles, but when it comes to my self-control or whatever it’s truly subhuman. If I truly feel like doing or not doing something in the present moment there is no way for me to resist. I can try to debate it in my head making as many rational points as possible, but I always get to the point where I just say ‘fuck it!”.
