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I spend on average 5 hours a day walking around aimlessly, daydreaming about how different things would be if I wasn't bullied growing up, if I didn't have the worst possible combination of parents etc. I also daydream about having a girlfriend for so long that it almost feels real at times but then I wake up and realize that i'm sitting alone under some bridge.
It's unbelievable how much I have already missed out on. Most fucking 12 year olds have more experience with girls than me. Life ends at 25 for the average person which means I have less than 5 years left. Is it really worth trying at this point? Highschool was a complete waste and college will be too.
I don't like partying, I don't see the appeal of fucking 10 whores every weekend. All I want is a girl who is a virgin and loves me but that is way too much to ask a 21st century western female for. Until that happens I cannot do anything. Every single one of my previous copes is a chore now. I can't concentrate on video games, movies, books, nothing. I almost immediately start daydreaming about having a girlfriend.
It's unbelievable how much I have already missed out on. Most fucking 12 year olds have more experience with girls than me. Life ends at 25 for the average person which means I have less than 5 years left. Is it really worth trying at this point? Highschool was a complete waste and college will be too.
I don't like partying, I don't see the appeal of fucking 10 whores every weekend. All I want is a girl who is a virgin and loves me but that is way too much to ask a 21st century western female for. Until that happens I cannot do anything. Every single one of my previous copes is a chore now. I can't concentrate on video games, movies, books, nothing. I almost immediately start daydreaming about having a girlfriend.