cuz i feel like im the only one who's actually showed up for friends or family when they needed it; what do my parents add to my life when mom ends up divorcing my dad in 4th grade, starts hoarding cats and trash, and doesnt think twice about it? better yet my dad LET it happen too, so at the point he starts smoking his brains out before 60 i get the feeling he's not going to live forever. even my grandpa- who's only starting to enter his 70s- didnt really start getting old till recently, just when my lifes about to start, and its even more telling when he's the only person in our family who actually cares about keeping things together. friends smoke their brains out, forget to respond to messages, never actually make an effort to be there for you, just wallow in their misery. am i the only person in my family who actually has a future? who doesnt feel entitled to just die on everyone? what even is "family" for at that point? maybe some people have the luxury of it, but only as far as they actually understand you, which, i dont think anyone in my life ever really has.
but ig thats ok tbh, it stems from a good place, its just a shame i had to figure it out on my own
but ig thats ok tbh, it stems from a good place, its just a shame i had to figure it out on my own
