I don’t feel at all entitled to it, but I do resent the fact that I am deemed so far beneath that nobody would want me as a partner. I’ve managed to live with it for over 45 years and for the most part, my resentment is only a background simmering resentment.
It erupts when I let my guard slip and get a real crush on someone who, naturally, rejects me, while going for the usual brutish oils that they invariably gravitate to.
I don’t even blame individual people as such, since the SMV hierarchy is drilled into all of us from a very early age.
I am convinced that Incels are not born, they are made. Furthermore, I’m pretty sure that an Incel is created before the age of 7, through dysfunctional interpersonal family relations from a very early age.
If I wanted to blame others for my plight, it would be the family from the formative years, rather than society as a whole. People can’t really help how they are conditioned into believing what they do, behaving how they do, etc. After all, I can’t help being what I was turned into, either.
I also think that being Incel is Gender / Sexual Orientation and other demographic signifiers agnostic. I don’t believe that only men become Incels, it affects all the different demographics in their own ways.
I tend to become more asexual in most of my life, I’ve generally come to accept the limits of my situation in terms of being too unattractive for intimate relationships and sexual intimacy and mostly, it doesn’t affect me - until I fall really hard, for someone. Then, all the latent rage and resentment surfaces and it makes life difficult.
I know that I was forcibly Incelised from when very young, then had it enforced by two older toxic siblings. One of which was a Dark Triad player, the other one, who is very much Incel-Adjacent, tried playing the simp-Cuck, with, I have to say, occasional bouts of success, even if it ended problematically. It was always that one who would shout me down if I dared to articulate any of my resentments, insight or to convey any views that were deemed ‘unorthodox’. This was before anyone had ever conceptualised Incel, let alone had a means to engage with others online.
I hadn’t realised it consciously at the time, but those two shitbags were able to bad mouth me and prevent me from forming possible relationship, the Dark Triad, by projecting his own limitations and shortcomings and negative attributes onto me, the other, by being the faux virtue signaller and simp and trying to trash me. They are both twins, both older than me, so I’m guessing that it is inter-sibling hostility going on here.
They’re twins, and although many on here have expressed the view that there is nothing to hope for, there’s nothing to live for, but for me, all I have to hope, is that at least one of them dies before I do, just to leave the other one tasting a bit of the pain that I lived through thanks to them and their parents.
EDIT:
I forgot to mention, 3 years ago, I discovered the miracle of chemical libido suppression, so I don’t suffer sexual urges any longer; no more embarrassing physiological symptoms on waking up, etc.
I wish I’d discovered this in my early-mid teens, it would have saved an awful lot of mental agony, resentment and self-loathing. I have gained belated relief and am now functionally Asexual.