Improved it.
At least now I know I'm not crazy. Also, since being BlackPilled, I have become more pro-active in my looksmaxing process.
Before, I used to have these thoughts that looks are everything, but I'd quickly dismiss them and return to bluepill hamstering. I'd get ideas about doing a surgery, or some acne scar treatment, but then I wouldn't follow through, because actually making shit happen is not easy. Since swallowing the blackpill, whenever I can afford a looksmaxing procedure that will benefit me without affecting my other priorities in life, I go for it.
Blackpill made me in a way more of a risk taker, more impulsive, more aggressive. I unintentionally am becoming increasingly more Alpha.
Praised be the Black Pill.