Serious Do you hit your head often?

[cathuluelitist]

These past few weeks I've been banging my phone screen right on my forehead, over and over, and then usually I would slam my skull on the railings of my bed and I just can't stop hitting my head, I'm trying to stop but I'm always so tempted, I have like two hematomas now and really bad memory and articulation, hopefully I didn't do anything permanent, I think just thinking about it is making it worse. I was fine just a while ago but after I rubbed my forehead and felt the sensations I feel weird tbh, OOBE sort of, I feel like I'm gonna die in my sleep basically. I remember reading about Bob Paget in the news and how he hit his head and never woke up again, I'm scared I might never wake up, I really do want to wake up though, I have some things I wanna do before I die. Is this Gnon punishing me? I've haven't been getting many intrusive thoughts recently, hitting my head usually rids them but I feel weird and anxious now, a feeling I've never feeled before.

Maybe Gnon is punishing me, since the fall, our passions have ruled our reason almost entirely so I think I've finally lost my brain to eros, it's consumed me likely, this might be it. Without reason, we are like the other animals, and will act like them, I'm basically an animal, a dying animal so at some point it must eclipse, Gnon must put me out of my misery.

Hm, yeah, I don't want Gnon to do it yet, we must use our collective oujas to beg Gnon to spare me, I have to get revenge first, maybe it won't be permanent brain damage, I don't wanna get CTE.. it's pretty insane there's this incurable brain destroyer that basically destroys your brain and can't be detected, that's super scary, imagine just waking up and you're a zombie, this homicidal zombie with all these complex emotions, Aaron Hernandez scares me honestly, all of it does, it's just so mind raping to think about. The head pain will probably past though, I've felt similar to this before and it usually ends.

 

[FuckYou]

If you keep doing that you're gonna get permanent brain damage.

 

[cathuluelitist]

If you keep doing that you're gonna get permanent brain damage.

Mhm, I've only been doing it for a few weeks just compulsively, I can't pinpoint why, but after I saw the sheer size of the hematoma bulging in, I'm less inclined to do it obviously, I was with a lot of family a little bit ago so I'm hurt no one cared enough to ask about it.

It's a pretty common tick among aspies so maybe if I cut the behavior down it won't do much to me in the long run, I usually assume the worst, I mean, I diagnosed myself with CTE three times already just from having minor memory lapses, I don't get much sleep so most of the symptoms from that could easily mimic CTE and concussion symptoms, my biggest fear is becoming a soulless bugman. Islam and CTE turn you into soulless bugmen which is why I fear those two things the most. I'll cut it down and hope for the best outcome, maybe I'll get lucky for once.

 

[AscendOrDieTrying]

Hmm never had heard of that before. When I was a kid I used to pick at my scalp and cause some scabs, is that similar?

 

[VλREN]

Yeah I gotten a lot of head injuries

Once in early 2022 I Was being a dumbass and I was laying on my back and someone crashed into the top of my head with a bike going full speed

I literally looked like my pfp afterwards

 

[VλREN]

I also accidentally head butted the wall once

I was pretending to headbutt the wall and missed calculated and I ended up accidentally head butting the wall full force

Hurt like hell

 

[WizardInTraining]

When I was younger I was pretty clumsy now not nearly as much.

 

[cathuluelitist]

Yeah I gotten a lot of head injuries

Once in early 2022 I Was being a dumbass and I was laying on my back and someone crashed into the top of my head with a bike going full speed

I literally looked like my pfp afterwards

I've never gotten hit that bad, I think the dread of imagining all the neuron and brain death would hurt almost as bad as the injury itself. I have dreams of acquiring lots of money and becoming famous then letting it blast to all my enemies and bullies from school so if I were to get my brain messed up it would really impede my grandest dreams. I would want to mirror after Nick's show and just go off on random tandems and have a bunch of clippers get it millions of clicks and views. But apparently CTE develops from mild axonal damage so microfractures and small TBIs, I never really played any sports but I was known for being clumsy and hitting my head when I was younger. I developed a lazy eye pretty sporadically so I might actually have brain damage, I mean, I've gotten my head checked out before, where they basically attached these electrodes to my head, I don't remember exactly what they said but nothing bad.

And, there's certain biomarkers to detect CTE now so I'm a lot more assuaged now that it isn't a complete void. Arron Hernandez was practically brain dead at the time of his death, I watch death all the time but Aaron Hernandez story scares me the most mainly because I've always been paranoid about head injuries and it's something that really seaps into me even after seemingly mild blows. I definitely wouldn't ever get into a fight, like if I were to have a girlfriend and someone's like sexually harassing her and caresses her ass, I'm sprinting away from the scene, well, I'd probably have a gun, maybe not though since my state has horrible guns laws so yeah I'm gonna have to ditch her, I can't afford too much brain damage.

I've heard of stories of people literally getting KOed from a singular hit to the head and dying, local stories, small little disputes becoming homicidal and or resulting in serious mental impairment, I'm too fragile to be fighting a guy over a girl.

 

[Rapistcel]

These past few weeks I've been banging my phone screen right on my forehead, over and over, and then usually I would slam my skull on the railings of my bed and I just can't stop hitting my head, I'm trying to stop but I'm always so tempted, I have like two hematomas now and really bad memory and articulation, hopefully I didn't do anything permanent, I think just thinking about it is making it worse. I was fine just a while ago but after I rubbed my forehead and felt the sensations I feel weird tbh, OOBE sort of, I feel like I'm gonna die in my sleep basically. I remember reading about Bob Paget in the news and how he hit his head and never woke up again, I'm scared I might never wake up, I really do want to wake up though, I have some things I wanna do before I die. Is this Gnon punishing me? I've haven't been getting many intrusive thoughts recently, hitting my head usually rids them but I feel weird and anxious now, a feeling I've never feeled before.

Maybe Gnon is punishing me, since the fall, our passions have ruled our reason almost entirely so I think I've finally lost my brain to eros, it's consumed me likely, this might be it. Without reason, we are like the other animals, and will act like them, I'm basically an animal, a dying animal so at some point it must eclipse, Gnon must put me out of my misery.

Hm, yeah, I don't want Gnon to do it yet, we must use our collective oujas to beg Gnon to spare me, I have to get revenge first, maybe it won't be permanent brain damage, I don't wanna get CTE.. it's pretty insane there's this incurable brain destroyer that basically destroys your brain and can't be detected, that's super scary, imagine just waking up and you're a zombie, this homicidal zombie with all these complex emotions, Aaron Hernandez scares me honestly, all of it does, it's just so mind raping to think about. The head pain will probably past though, I've felt similar to this before and it usually ends.

No

 

[chudt320]

So what do u gain out of hitting your head

 

[poorenglishcel]

Never

 

[spergierthanyou]

I used to do it on purpose whenever I was upset as a child and I see now why teachers told my parents I was sped