1. I live in possibly most controversial place ever so I have to deal with some retarded politics shit
2. My family is upper middle class but I'm an autist that's just can't hide his sperginess and retardation no matter how hard I try, also my mom hates my guts and is abusive towards me, and my dad stays with her in spite of how much shit she is
3. I have really shitty voice at any language I speak with heavy accent also in all and occasionally wrong pronunciation. It sounds really fucking hhigh-pitched and unbearable To hear
4. I have average height so that's at least a good thing
5. I'm skinny on a level that I'm essentially underweight due to side effects of meds. I do strength training though plus started eating more but I'm still 53.1kg and I used to be like around 45 to 47. And yeah my bones are absolutely visible. Worst part is I have a fat belly & legs, but overtly weak hands and arms.
6. I stutter a lot, I make grammatical mistakes, I'm only good in writing but for some reason I want friends and ascending but I just can't get it no matter how hard I try. Closest I got is befriending spergs but even then I know they'll leave me eventually, some already left.
7. I'm overtly extroverted in a retarded way essentially craving human contact as much as possible and even where I live that's full of them, I still seen as a fucking weirdo.
8. I got a lot of negative remarks about my appearance e.g. shitty beard that can barely qualify as one, oily skin, awful taste at haircuts, bad smell, lots of sweat, bad looking clothes, etc... only thing good about my face is my eyes, and even that is just because their color is rare where I live
9. I constantly shave my beard in hopes it will stop hurting so fucking much, I end up having stubble all the damn time
10. Foids hate my guts especially my mom
11. I'm ESL so I can forget about trying to go to the US or any other anglo country
12. I have afrocu handwriting
13. I used to have a lot of hobbies like torrenting and emulation but I quitted it all because I'm too depressed
14. I'm in sped at 20, and even there I got horrendous treatment by lots of the people there especially foids. I had even worse experiences when I was in regular education throughout grade 1 to 12
15. I'm stupid and slow and don't know what to say most of the time
16. No matter how hard I try to keep my heigine good I still struggle bc I'm bad at brushing teeth plus for some reason showers don't help me at all
17. I'm porn addict to the most terrible categories that ever existed
18. I'm noob at video games in spite of practicing although still better than truly ultra noobs
19. My dad treats me like a retard either by speaking to me as if I'm a kid or by telling me RTFM just for asking for help, and I know that he knows about tech way more than me, but I still program and know how to troubleshoot and shit, I'm just not an expert like him. My mom just treats me as if I'm a spawn of Satan ever since I was born, probably because of my early autism diagnosis.
20. I get treated horribly by my brothers. Middle brother despises me ever since I was a kid, little brother just annoying gen alpha fuck that rn is somewhat ok with me but he'll def hate me soon as he's already 9 yo.
21. The side of mom that she keeps in contact with excluding my grandpa absolutely hates me for being retarded and sperg, just like she does
22. Even an extremely short friend I had, somehow ascended in spite his height and average looks probably because he's NT. Btw this fuck just one day decided to not be in contact with me for no apparent reason, and we've been super close friends in elementary school.
23. I had to beg people in order to have chance to be friends with them. Full on Introverts here won't get it.
24. I'm an extrovert without any social skills. I tried jestermaxxing recently and it went terrible, people just despise me, especially toilets
25. I'm also an introvert somehow simultaneously but only in the company of those I hate
26. Even when I had interests they were too niche for normies and too mainstream for nerds
27. I got laughed at a lot on VCs unfortunately
28. Teachers also hated my guts bc I was good in English writing and math but not literature or Bible
29. I'm obsessed with media that has drug dealers that are banned from entering cities, and go in carvans, and they're also addicted to said drug, and they been enslaved in the 3rd main entry of the franchise (you can probably guess already which)
30. Don't have any patience to watch, read, play or listen to anything because my attention span was always bad and only got worse with the years
31. Been former gifted kid and now suck as an adult in everything
The list continues. Tell me your opinions about it, am I sub 5 according to this? or not because I have some redeeming qualities about appearance, voice, physique, etc... bc I also have shit ton of negative ones probably more than I mentioned here. Oh and last one is that I have 0 charisma and charm to my character and I suck at writing and also handwriting
2. My family is upper middle class but I'm an autist that's just can't hide his sperginess and retardation no matter how hard I try, also my mom hates my guts and is abusive towards me, and my dad stays with her in spite of how much shit she is
3. I have really shitty voice at any language I speak with heavy accent also in all and occasionally wrong pronunciation. It sounds really fucking hhigh-pitched and unbearable To hear
4. I have average height so that's at least a good thing
5. I'm skinny on a level that I'm essentially underweight due to side effects of meds. I do strength training though plus started eating more but I'm still 53.1kg and I used to be like around 45 to 47. And yeah my bones are absolutely visible. Worst part is I have a fat belly & legs, but overtly weak hands and arms.
6. I stutter a lot, I make grammatical mistakes, I'm only good in writing but for some reason I want friends and ascending but I just can't get it no matter how hard I try. Closest I got is befriending spergs but even then I know they'll leave me eventually, some already left.
7. I'm overtly extroverted in a retarded way essentially craving human contact as much as possible and even where I live that's full of them, I still seen as a fucking weirdo.
8. I got a lot of negative remarks about my appearance e.g. shitty beard that can barely qualify as one, oily skin, awful taste at haircuts, bad smell, lots of sweat, bad looking clothes, etc... only thing good about my face is my eyes, and even that is just because their color is rare where I live
9. I constantly shave my beard in hopes it will stop hurting so fucking much, I end up having stubble all the damn time
10. Foids hate my guts especially my mom
11. I'm ESL so I can forget about trying to go to the US or any other anglo country
12. I have afrocu handwriting
13. I used to have a lot of hobbies like torrenting and emulation but I quitted it all because I'm too depressed
14. I'm in sped at 20, and even there I got horrendous treatment by lots of the people there especially foids. I had even worse experiences when I was in regular education throughout grade 1 to 12
15. I'm stupid and slow and don't know what to say most of the time
16. No matter how hard I try to keep my heigine good I still struggle bc I'm bad at brushing teeth plus for some reason showers don't help me at all
17. I'm porn addict to the most terrible categories that ever existed
18. I'm noob at video games in spite of practicing although still better than truly ultra noobs
19. My dad treats me like a retard either by speaking to me as if I'm a kid or by telling me RTFM just for asking for help, and I know that he knows about tech way more than me, but I still program and know how to troubleshoot and shit, I'm just not an expert like him. My mom just treats me as if I'm a spawn of Satan ever since I was born, probably because of my early autism diagnosis.
20. I get treated horribly by my brothers. Middle brother despises me ever since I was a kid, little brother just annoying gen alpha fuck that rn is somewhat ok with me but he'll def hate me soon as he's already 9 yo.
21. The side of mom that she keeps in contact with excluding my grandpa absolutely hates me for being retarded and sperg, just like she does
22. Even an extremely short friend I had, somehow ascended in spite his height and average looks probably because he's NT. Btw this fuck just one day decided to not be in contact with me for no apparent reason, and we've been super close friends in elementary school.
23. I had to beg people in order to have chance to be friends with them. Full on Introverts here won't get it.
24. I'm an extrovert without any social skills. I tried jestermaxxing recently and it went terrible, people just despise me, especially toilets
25. I'm also an introvert somehow simultaneously but only in the company of those I hate
26. Even when I had interests they were too niche for normies and too mainstream for nerds
27. I got laughed at a lot on VCs unfortunately
28. Teachers also hated my guts bc I was good in English writing and math but not literature or Bible
29. I'm obsessed with media that has drug dealers that are banned from entering cities, and go in carvans, and they're also addicted to said drug, and they been enslaved in the 3rd main entry of the franchise (you can probably guess already which)
30. Don't have any patience to watch, read, play or listen to anything because my attention span was always bad and only got worse with the years
31. Been former gifted kid and now suck as an adult in everything
The list continues. Tell me your opinions about it, am I sub 5 according to this? or not because I have some redeeming qualities about appearance, voice, physique, etc... bc I also have shit ton of negative ones probably more than I mentioned here. Oh and last one is that I have 0 charisma and charm to my character and I suck at writing and also handwriting
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