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UglyHikikomori
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- Jan 8, 2018
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Dozens of times a day I must confront the brutal reality of my ugly subhuman face and body with the inevitable contact with various reflective surfaces, e.g. mirrors, screens and reflective dishwares. This leads to a continuum of reminders that I am in the bottom 1% and that I will never be unconditionally accepted as a human being who has aspirations and a innate passion to pursue happiness just like every other human on this planet.
Going outside exposes me to more reflective surfaces than what's available at my apartment and my thoughts are divided into two personas; one that carries on a conversation with blissfully ignorant normies and euphoric chad/stacy while nursing a dissociated subhuman (me) who's talking to himself in his head about how fucking ugly I am while simultaneously discussing in my head and dissecting the microexpressions of the people who have to see my bare subhumanity.
Furthermore, due to the severity of my ugliness I am shunned and isolated from being in public spaces where others simply exist. This is relevant because it plays into the chronic exposure/reminder of my reflection and this awareness about the weight of my reflection in social settings serves as the injection of pure suffering into my cognizance and serves as a further barrier to overcoming the suffocation that is seen as extreme social isolation (hikikomori).
I'm suffering immensely and it's all because I am very ugly.
Going outside exposes me to more reflective surfaces than what's available at my apartment and my thoughts are divided into two personas; one that carries on a conversation with blissfully ignorant normies and euphoric chad/stacy while nursing a dissociated subhuman (me) who's talking to himself in his head about how fucking ugly I am while simultaneously discussing in my head and dissecting the microexpressions of the people who have to see my bare subhumanity.
Furthermore, due to the severity of my ugliness I am shunned and isolated from being in public spaces where others simply exist. This is relevant because it plays into the chronic exposure/reminder of my reflection and this awareness about the weight of my reflection in social settings serves as the injection of pure suffering into my cognizance and serves as a further barrier to overcoming the suffocation that is seen as extreme social isolation (hikikomori).
I'm suffering immensely and it's all because I am very ugly.