Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I just had a dream, and it was rather random and not very interesting. But I felt a tiny bit different than when I do when I'm awake. Maybe a sense of excitement, wonder, newness? Idk, but I liked it.
But when I'm awake, my brain feels like ... I don't know how to explain it. Like it knows everything? I'm not saying that I'm intelligent, I'm saying that my brain feels like it knows everything in the sense that there's no excitement, there's no point in everything, why bother doing it if it knows the outcome and it's not at all exciting or interesting or worth it? Like everything is predictable and boring. Everything.
And it also feels so muddy, so foggy. It's like I have only 1 baseline emotion and I sort of stumble through life like that, not like a human but more like an insect.
Idk, maybe I need to do something new, being cooped up in my room for so many years must've been horrible for the brain. But again, there's nothing outside of interest to me. Everything feels ... predictable? I would love to have something that would sort of light a spark again. I'm really tired of my brain feeling like this.
But when I'm awake, my brain feels like ... I don't know how to explain it. Like it knows everything? I'm not saying that I'm intelligent, I'm saying that my brain feels like it knows everything in the sense that there's no excitement, there's no point in everything, why bother doing it if it knows the outcome and it's not at all exciting or interesting or worth it? Like everything is predictable and boring. Everything.
And it also feels so muddy, so foggy. It's like I have only 1 baseline emotion and I sort of stumble through life like that, not like a human but more like an insect.
Idk, maybe I need to do something new, being cooped up in my room for so many years must've been horrible for the brain. But again, there's nothing outside of interest to me. Everything feels ... predictable? I would love to have something that would sort of light a spark again. I'm really tired of my brain feeling like this.