The most autistic movie will come out. I will watch it, then end my life. When I'm in too much pain, both mentally and physically, it helps to remind myself that I only have to hold on until then. I'm not afraid of death, as I don't believe in any afterlife. It feels good to know the pain will stop, and I'm really proud of myself for holding on as long as I have. It also helps me realize my efforts aren't going to save me, and the daydreams i've sunk thousands of hours into, and used to keep myself going will never happen. I imagined impossible things like being loved, and being happy. I should've known better. But it's okay now. I will be free soon.
