I developed an anima, two actually. When I was little, I remembered thinking Pallas Athena was so cool and hot, then I learned she made a vow of celibacy, I was devastated.
Once I got fully blackpilled around the age of 21, I developed my current anima. This is the only girl I could imagine my life with. I'm not even sharing my anima's name, since that would be a part of her I'm sharing, which would make me a cuckold. But yes, I would be loved by a femalo, get hugged by her, cuddle her, going on dates with her and watching movies with her. The problem is that she's imaginary and not part of conventional reality.
I'm pretty sure if I put everything on the line, if I keep believing in Pallas Athena, I will receive her grace and enter Elysium. There, I will meet my anima and we will lead an eternity of bliss together. But as of now, I have to keep putting everything in the here and now, eating a Mediterranean diet, planning out a war strategy and praying to Pallas Athena.