LDAR Cringe confession time

[kay']

When i was a teen and first discovered porn, i didnt beat the meat because i didnt know that was a possibility.


I used to just get hard and thats it, i would enjoy watching hot women and get hard and stay hard for like 10 minutes then when bored or see too much activity at home close the porn.

I started beating the meat at like 17 or 18 when i randomly rubbed it on the bed one day being too horny and coomed hard then realized then this is how its supposed to be done.

Over.

 

[kay']

Were you shariamaxxed before then?

Yes i was a lieutnant in isis at 13

 

[kay']

This place s IQ is below room temperature i think i need to leave

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Incel trait: foids had threesomes while you didn't even know how to beat your meat

 

[Mecoja]

Same, i didnt know for masturbation. I accidentally found out during bathing at like 14 and it scared the hell out of me

 

[anandkonda]

I was short in school and everyone made fun of me for that. I thought jestermaxxing would made everyone like me but that did not work for me. I later realized they were laughing at me, not with me .

I cut my thigh sometimes when I get random cringe attacks from my jestermaxxing days.

 

[GeckoBus]

When i was a teen and first discovered porn, i didnt beat the meat because i didnt know that was a possibility.


I used to just get hard and thats it, i would enjoy watching hot women and get hard and stay hard for like 10 minutes then when bored or see too much activity at home close the porn.

I started beating the meat at like 17 or 18 when i randomly rubbed it on the bed one day being too horny and coomed hard then realized then this is how its supposed to be done.

Over.

i walked around like the easter bunny in middle of class
and then the teacher said are you ok?
and i bolted to door into hallway
and a dude came after me
and i screamed I HAVE TO SHIIIIITT

 

[cripplecel]

Didn’t speak at school for several years because autistic AF

 

[kay']

Incel trait: foids had threesomes while you didn't even know how to beat your meat

 

[kay']

I was short in school and everyone made fun of me for that. I thought jestermaxxing would made everyone like me but that did not work for me. I later realized they were laughing at me, not with me .

I cut my thigh sometimes when I get random cringe attacks from my jestermaxxing days.

Same i was a jester too especially for girls. Very cringe days indeed

 

[anandkonda]

Same i was a jester too especially for girls. Very cringe days indeed

I was for the jester for THE ENTIRE FUCKING CLASS including the teachers. How do you think I felt.

I wanted everyone to like me and value me. This made it only worse.

Fuck I want to kill my self remembering that .

 

[Epedaphic]

Same i was a jester too especially for girls. Very cringe days indeed

I was for the jester for THE ENTIRE FUCKING CLASS including the teachers. How do you think I felt.

I wanted everyone to like me and value me. This made it only worse.

Me too man It gets better over time. But now it’s just replaced with different painful memories that won’t stop torturing me

 

[anandkonda]

Me too man It gets better over time. But now it’s just replaced with different painful memories that won’t stop torturing me

Right? Please tell me a solution if you find out. I have started cutting myself. I don't know how to forget my past. Anytime I achieve progress and do something productive I suddenly remember my shameful past and feel like shit.

I don't know how to move ahead of my past.

 

[turbosperg]

Over

ovER

 

[Epedaphic]

Right? Please tell me a solution if you find out. I have started cutting myself. I don't know how to forget my past. Anytime I achieve progress and do something productive I suddenly remember my shameful past and feel like shit.

I don't know how to move ahead of my past.

Over the years I think I developed tics, every time I remember something like this I’ll yell or yelp. I can avoid doing it when outside but sometimes I’ll wince or jerk my arm. It’s not ideal but it helps me cope I guess. Still, there are also times where the memories come back and it’s painful. But once I remember it, the associated pain usually goes away after a few minutes and if I keep visualizing the memory it gets better.

 

[suicidecase]

That's some on the spectrum shit, boyo.

I did the opposite. I inadvertently discovered masturbation when I was 8/9 because I aped my Nan's dog rubbing itself on the rug. And that's how I fapped for years until I discovered the correct way to do it.

 

[anandkonda]

Over the years I think I developed tics, every time I remember something like this I’ll yell or yelp. I can avoid doing it when outside but sometimes I’ll wince or jerk my arm. It’s not ideal but it helps me cope I guess. Still, there are also times where the memories come back and it’s painful. But once I remember it, the associated pain usually goes away after a few minutes and if I keep visualizing the memory it gets better.

Sounds like a good enough cope. Thanks brocel, hopefully both of us recover and regain our self-esteem

 

[Epedaphic]

Sounds like a good enough cope. Thanks brocel, hopefully both of us recover and regain our self-esteem

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