Craving to find a younger gf (19-21) as it feels like a return to my younger self to enjoy life as i never got to enjoy it.

[Diomedes_1112]

Since childhood I’ve had severe mental health problems (ADHD, autism, severe anxiety, I’m a highly sensitive person, obsessiveness, etc.). During my teens and early 20s, I’ve just been plagued with these problems, and feel a strong desire for pleasure, fun, etc.

I feel that if i were to find a young gf (19-21 years old), I’d enjoy having a feeling of returning to my younger self to enjoy life as i never got to. Now here i am at 25 with no friends, deep mental problems, unhappiness, can’t find a simple job, struggle with comprehension and get yelled at at work for not understanding anything, feelings of extreme weakness as I’m a highly sensitive person, etc.

The only reason i have killed myself is because i don’t want my corpse to be found by anyone. That absolutely terrifies me.

 

[Hurensohn]

Since childhood I’ve had severe mental health problems (ADHD, autism, severe anxiety, I’m a highly sensitive person, obsessiveness, etc.). During my teens and early 20s, I’ve just been plagued with these problems, and feel a strong desire for pleasure, fun, etc.

I feel that if i were to find a young gf (19-21 years old), I’d enjoy having a feeling of returning to my younger self to enjoy life as i never got to. Now here i am at 25 with no friends, deep mental problems, unhappiness, can’t find a simple job, struggle with comprehension and get yelled at at work for not understanding anything, feelings of extreme weakness as I’m a highly sensitive person, etc.

The only reason i have killed myself is because i don’t want my corpse to be found by anyone. That absolutely terrifies me.

same here but only 24, autism, social anexiety and some other shit.

completely over

 

[Hurensohn]

feel that if i were to find a young gf (19-21 years old),

This is impossible in our situation...

 

[Diomedes_1112]

This is impossible in our situation...

Well the only obstacle for me rn is i can’t even find a job at all.

If i could, i would earn money to buy only organic foods to reduce my anxiety, ADHD, etc. i would also undergo therapies to improve my mental health. Etc

 

[The Angel ov Death]

Why 19? Why not younger?

 

[ForcedMarriageNow]

relatable.

Well the only obstacle for me rn is i can’t even find a job at all.

If i could, i would earn money to buy only organic foods to reduce my anxiety, ADHD, etc. i would also undergo therapies to improve my mental health. Etc

Organic food and therapy are both scams, often times organic is grown the same way as non-organic and the only difference is that there was an extra cost for being able to get the organic certification and therapy can't help with any real problems, my experience with probably half a dozen therapists has just been that of having my claims and experiences disbelieved while I'm told to just ignore my problems and cope harder. One of the only pieces of advice I remember boiled down to "instead of caring about being lonely and having no social life why don't you try getting into anime and manga" as though that's even remotely close to a having a social life.

 

[Diomedes_1112]

relatable.


Organic food and therapy are both scams, often times organic is grown the same way as non-organic and the only difference is that there was an extra cost for being able to get the organic certification and therapy can't help with any real problems, my experience with probably half a dozen therapists has just been that of having my claims and experiences disbelieved while I'm told to just ignore my problems and cope harder. One of the only pieces of advice I remember boiled down to "instead of caring about being lonely and having no social life why don't you try getting into anime and manga" as though that's even remotely close to a having a social life.

But organic vegetables are sprayed with pesticides containing metals that cause brain inflammation if ingested. That’s what I’ve heard.

I don’t lack social skills myself, but I’m a very highly sensitive person and very really easily. Sucks. I think childhood vaccines made my condition far worse than me dad. Idk what i can do to cure this problem.

 

[SrutalBeggs]

Why 19? Why not younger?

^

 

[Diomedes_1112]

Why 19? Why not younger?

I just thought they might be too immature

 

[The Angel ov Death]

I just thought they might be too immature

Immaturity is hot

 

[Diomedes_1112]

Immaturity is hot

Yeah i know lol

I like that strong neuroplasticity that they still have at that age. I get to mold it to my liking.

 

[aitcel]

Life isn't fair

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

Why do you think about the life you've missed on, when you still have a shitload of problems and you aren't enjoying it now either? These thoughts would be normal if you had become a late bloomer normie somehow and got an older gf but felt that you had missed out on teen love, but right now you don't even have that. You missed on the past and you're missing the present too.

 

[Diomedes_1112]

Why do you think about the life you've missed on, when you still have a shitload of problems and you aren't enjoying it now either? These thoughts would be normal if you had become a late bloomer normie somehow and got an older gf but felt that you had missed out on teen love, but right now you don't even have that. You missed on the past and you're missing the present too.

Because I’m trying to solve my problems I’m currently facing to still have a chance at enjoying life

 

[Emba]

Life isn't fair

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