My life since I got in school is simply countin days, I dont enjoy my life, not at all, I wouldnt even know how to do it, I dont believe its possible for me to enjoy life. I dont know anymore why Im doin things, it all makes no sense.
I simply counted and still count the days until smth happens, get from school year to school year thinkin that next year things will change, they never did. I thaught after finishing school and startin to work I would enter a new world - No it remained the same, just that everything got more and more depressing and the days looked more and more equal. And Im still countin days thinkin that there will smth come which change atleast one tiny thing, but I dont know what should come and I cant imagine that there is smth that would my life worth living, even if I would switch my job, start a new hobby, move somewhere else - Nothing ever happens, nothing ever changes
I simply counted and still count the days until smth happens, get from school year to school year thinkin that next year things will change, they never did. I thaught after finishing school and startin to work I would enter a new world - No it remained the same, just that everything got more and more depressing and the days looked more and more equal. And Im still countin days thinkin that there will smth come which change atleast one tiny thing, but I dont know what should come and I cant imagine that there is smth that would my life worth living, even if I would switch my job, start a new hobby, move somewhere else - Nothing ever happens, nothing ever changes
