SuicideFuel College has been the worst years of my life

[Notkev]

Seeing people my age living their best lives and couples is killing me. I couldn't even be friends with women let alone date them. I've even struggled with my academics in the past year. Engineering eats at your soul. I've even gotten skinnier than I thought I could be. I'm sleeping at 3-4 AM. My T levels are fucked up. I'm tired all the time. What's so fundamentally wrong with me that makes me so unloveable.
Every day was the fucking same:

Go to class.
Do basic surface level socializing.
Class ends.
Go to the cafeteria.
Have lunch alone.
Go to the library alone.
Study, listen to music and shit.
Class in the evening begins.
I attend.
It ends.
Go home.
Doom scroll IG.
Eat dinner.
Sleep.
Repeat.

I got 1.5 years left. And once that's over, I NEED A FUCKING JOB RELATED TO MY DEGREE, I NEED FUCKING MONEY.

 

[Lonelyus]

Completed college in 2018, Loneliest year of my life, Just rotting in dorm room because everyone i try and talk to rejects my approach.

 

[Notkev]

Completed college in 2018, Loneliest year of my life, Just rotting in dorm room because everyone i try and talk to rejects my approach.

I busted my ass to get in this college. Did nothing but study for 2.5 years.
The degree and stuff are good.

Everything else makes me wanna kms

 

[Incel_Doomer]

I was extremely depressed at university. All around me people having friends and girlfriends and parties etc. and me with nothing. It was like being a homeless beggar in filthy rags sitting in the shadows on the street watching the millionaries go by. I quickly ended up just spending all my time in my room, shutting it out. When I did go out it was usually at night. If I had to go to something in the day, which obviously classes were in the daytime, I would leave at the last second and cycle. Passing all the people walking with their friends. Go to the class then immediately cycle home. Use the PC with my headphones on. Leave the lights off at night so no one could hopefully tell I was there. Yeah you could maybe see screen light under the door sometimes but it worked pretty well.

'If I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor.'

I'm not surprised fewer and fewer males are going to university. In fact more and more males are getting shut out of society more broadly. Dating, socialising, education, job, having a car, home ownership, family and kids, things are really deteriorating.

 

[Notkev]

I was extremely depressed at university. All around me people having friends and girlfriends and parties etc. and me with nothing. It was like being a homeless beggar in filthy rags sitting in the shadows on the street watching the millionaries go by. I quickly ended up just spending all my time in my room, shutting it out. When I did go out it was usually at night. If I had to go to something in the day, which obviously classes were in the daytime, I would leave at the last second and cycle. Passing all the people walking with their friends. Go to the class then immediately cycle home. Use the PC with my headphones on. Leave the lights off at night so no one could hopefully tell I was there. Yeah you could maybe see screen light under the door sometimes but it worked pretty well.

'If I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor.'

I'm not surprised fewer and fewer males are going to university. In fact more and more males are getting shut out of society more broadly. Dating, socialising, education, job, having a car, home ownership, family and kids, things are really deteriorating.

It's depressing how our experiences mirror each other. Everything I went through to get in this college all for this...
I thought it was gonna be the best years of my life, so far it's been a survival game with absurd difficulty.

No friends, no memories, no love or gf, no nothing. Empty. All suffering. I wish I didn't desire.

 

[lazy_gamer_423]

I was extremely depressed at university. All around me people having friends and girlfriends and parties etc. and me with nothing. It was like being a homeless beggar in filthy rags sitting in the shadows on the street watching the millionaries go by. I quickly ended up just spending all my time in my room, shutting it out. When I did go out it was usually at night. If I had to go to something in the day, which obviously classes were in the daytime, I would leave at the last second and cycle. Passing all the people walking with their friends. Go to the class then immediately cycle home. Use the PC with my headphones on. Leave the lights off at night so no one could hopefully tell I was there. Yeah you could maybe see screen light under the door sometimes but it worked pretty well.

'If I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor.'

I'm not surprised fewer and fewer males are going to university. In fact more and more males are getting shut out of society more broadly. Dating, socialising, education, job, having a car, home ownership, family and kids, things are really deteriorating.

this is exactly why i'm not going to college or uni

 

[opioidcel]

this is exactly why i'm not going to college or uni

What are u doing then

 

[Notkev]

this is exactly why i'm not going to college or uni

do you plan to NEET?

 

[opikop]

The normies become even worse as you get older. Some jobs are even worse.

 

[Incel_Doomer]

 

[fatass30000]

im at a somewhat good place mentally rn but once i start IEK in about a month (kinda like college, you basically learn a trade), i already know i will be super depressed seeing everyone socializing and getting into relationships while im rotting in a corner

 

[lazy_gamer_423]

What are u doing then

taking a trade in computers

 

[opioidcel]

taking a trade in computers

Jobmogger

 

[incalculable]

Seeing people my age living their best lives and couples is killing me.

Some moments REALLY make me wish I was born blind. Just so I would not be forced to see some things over here.

I just left school now because of something I don't want to talk about.
If you could see what I'm feeling inside of me right now. If there was a graph showing how intense it is... I believe that it's something that wouldn't fit inside the body of a demon, let alone a human being.


I am drinking to cope.

 

[reveries]

I was extremely depressed at university. All around me people having friends and girlfriends and parties etc. and me with nothing. It was like being a homeless beggar in filthy rags sitting in the shadows on the street watching the millionaries go by. I quickly ended up just spending all my time in my room, shutting it out. When I did go out it was usually at night. If I had to go to something in the day, which obviously classes were in the daytime, I would leave at the last second and cycle. Passing all the people walking with their friends. Go to the class then immediately cycle home. Use the PC with my headphones on. Leave the lights off at night so no one could hopefully tell I was there. Yeah you could maybe see screen light under the door sometimes but it worked pretty well.

'If I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor.'

I'm not surprised fewer and fewer males are going to university. In fact more and more males are getting shut out of society more broadly. Dating, socialising, education, job, having a car, home ownership, family and kids, things are really deteriorating.

Sheesh this reminded me of this terrible feeling of not knowing what to do with myself during breaks between classes in college/uni. All the normfags were gathering together chatting and discussing some trivial bullshit I couldn't care less about, you either had to do that and feel and look extremely out of place or to hang out with a couple of weird outcasted guys. Shit was horrible

I spent most of my college time hiding in the library or just skipping the whole thing wandering around the city.
I was able to endure only a year of such life and then I dropped out in my second year because it was unbearable socially, and my parents were gaslighting me into feeling guilty and like it was because I didn't want to study, which I did, I just couldn't handle the social pressure of being a loner who was unable to relate to anybody there

 

[Notkev]

Sheesh this reminded me of this terrible feeling of not knowing what to do with myself during breaks between classes in college/uni. All the normfags were gathering together chatting and discussing some trivial bullshit I couldn't care less about, you either had to do that and feel and look extremely out of place or to hang out with a couple of weird outcasted guys. Shit was horrible

I spent most of my college time hiding in the library or just skipping the whole thing wandering around the city.
I was able to endure only a year of such life and then I dropped out in my second year because it was unbearable socially, and my parents were gaslighting me into feeling guilty and like it was because I didn't want to study, which I did, I just couldn't handle the social pressure of being a loner who was unable to relate to anybody there

This stuff sucks the soul out of ypu man. I've had to endure more than 3 years of college now. Either alone or with one or two outcasts like me.

 

[gymcellragefuel]

Fuck shit. I start on Monday. How the fuck do I cope. FUCKK FUCKDKKKK

 

[reveries]

This stuff sucks the soul out of ypu man. I've had to endure more than 3 years of college now. Either alone or with one or two outcasts like me.

Props to you for having the strength to push through this shit man

 

[gymcellragefuel]

College is fucking hell. No one was ever interested in me as a person. I was outcasted from the beginning . No one cared about my hobbies, interests, what I like . The only way to make friends was to orbit a chad who already had multiple orbiters. Such a shit reality. Please fucking kill me. I’ll rot in the library alone in my breaks as usual. Fuck this world

 

[Notkev]

Props to you for having the strength to push through this shit man

Thanks man. What have you been doing ever since you dropped out?

 

[reveries]

Thanks man. What have you been doing ever since you dropped out?

I'm an oldcel brother, this happened 12 years ago JFL. I'm just lucky to have a hobby (art-related) that I recently managed to monetize and it pays my bills now and I'm somewhat happy with where I'm heading, even being an incel. Also I knew a lot of dudes in my life who made decent money without a degree. Some opened businesses, some learned a trade, some got into investing, also there are some jobs that require no formal education but pay well. Like social media manager or sales manager

Not advocating for dropping out though, if you picked a good useful degree that you enjoy you should absolutely push through till the end and ignore the normfags that unfortunately will be surrounding you for a couple years, but it will pay off

 

[Notkev]

College is fucking hell. No one was ever interested in me as a person. I was outcasted from the beginning . No one cared about my hobbies, interests, what I like . The only way to make friends was to orbit a chad who already had multiple orbiters. Such a shit reality. Please fucking kill me. I’ll rot in the library alone in my breaks as usual. Fuck this world

sucks man. Mine will begin in a week. Rotting in the library between classes...all over again

 

[Genetically Doomed]

I wish I had the majority of college students’ college life.

 

[gymcellragefuel]

sucks man. Mine will begin in a week. Rotting in the library between classes...all over again

Maybe we can message each other. My experience is pretty similar to yours. I’m also doing civil engineering btw

 

[Notkev]

I'm an oldcel brother, this happened 12 years ago JFL. I'm just lucky to have a hobby (art-related) that I recently managed to monetize and it pays my bills now and I'm somewhat happy with where I'm heading, even being an incel. Also I knew a lot of dudes in my life who made decent money without a degree. Some opened businesses, some learned a trade, some got into investing, also there are some jobs that require no formal education but pay well. Like social media manager or sales manager

Not advocating for dropping out though, if you picked a good useful degree that you enjoy you should absolutely push through till the end and ignore the normfags that unfortunately will be surrounding you for a couple years, but it will pay off

That's great. I'm happy you're content with where you're headed. I picked an engineering major that pays well if you can get the job done.

 

[Notkev]

Maybe we can message each other. My experience is pretty similar to yours. I’m also doing civil engineering btw

We should. I'm doing materials engineering

 

[reveries]

That's great. I'm happy you're content with where you're headed. I picked an engineering major that pays well if you can get the job done.

You made the right choice man. There are so many useless meme degrees nowadays, like shit that foids tend to pick

 

[BlackPilledNeet]

So whats your plan? Being a fuckin miserable wageslave after you finished your useless studies? You want to pay money to this doomed society that dispises people like you? Collegecels or universitycels are bluepilled af imo. They really think their useless diplomas will get the money and the money will get them bitches JFL

 

[incalculable]

cant even imagine it. i'd make up an excuse to not attend.

 

[Notkev]

So whats your plan? Being a fuckin miserable wageslave after you finished your useless studies? You want to pay money to this doomed society that dispises people like you? Collegecels or universitycels are bluepilled af imo. They really think their useless diplomas will get the money and the money will get them bitches JFL

I have no hope of getting foids through cash. I know it doesn't work like that. You need looks. And I'm doing engineering but I agree that they are not as useful as they used to be. But STEM is still better than other stuff and the ONLY majors that are worth going to uni for.

Plus I study for free cause I had to take an exam to get in. So that's that.

I plan on contributing to soyciety just enough to get the pay that I need to sustain myself and my hobbies. And hopefully turn one of those hobbies into a job if I can.

 

[Notkev]

You made the right choice man. There are so many useless meme degrees nowadays, like shit that foids tend to pick

Gender studies jfl

 

[Notkev]

cant even imagine it. i'd make up an excuse to not attend.

The thing is that I WANTED THIS. I just didn't know the social aspect would be so trash (for me of course)

 

[TheCatMan]

You should've took a trade

 

[Notkev]

You should've took a trade

I've been learning one by working for my cousin during the summer break. I get paid little, but I've learnt things

 

[Incel_Doomer]

It's depressing how our experiences mirror each other. Everything I went through to get in this college all for this...
I thought it was gonna be the best years of my life, so far it's been a survival game with absurd difficulty.

No friends, no memories, no love or gf, no nothing. Empty. All suffering. I wish I didn't desire.

Sheesh this reminded me of this terrible feeling of not knowing what to do with myself during breaks between classes in college/uni. All the normfags were gathering together chatting and discussing some trivial bullshit I couldn't care less about, you either had to do that and feel and look extremely out of place or to hang out with a couple of weird outcasted guys. Shit was horrible

I spent most of my college time hiding in the library or just skipping the whole thing wandering around the city.
I was able to endure only a year of such life and then I dropped out in my second year because it was unbearable socially, and my parents were gaslighting me into feeling guilty and like it was because I didn't want to study, which I did, I just couldn't handle the social pressure of being a loner who was unable to relate to anybody there

Yeah exactly. I remember I used to go on long night runs through the parkland and along the river, listening to Dinosaur Jr on my headphones, to kind of get some energy out.

 

[Rapist]

I WANT TO RAPE THESE SLUTS. LET ME RAPE

 

[Ellsworth]

Hopefully once you get your degree you can get a good job and betabux a decent looking foid who doesn’t completely hate you.

 

[Incel_Doomer]

Hopefully once you get your degree you can get a good job and betabux a decent looking foid who doesn’t completely hate you.

Are you posting from 1993?

 

[Notkev]

Hopefully once you get your degree you can get a good job and betabux a decent looking foid who doesn’t completely hate you.

The good job part yes, but fuck the foids. I'm tired of this shit. Just wanna make enough to sustain myself.

 

[littlemanhikicel]

I never went to university. Thank god, I only read suifuel stories about it.

 

[Lurkercel_678]

Seeing people my age living their best lives and couples is killing me. I couldn't even be friends with women let alone date them. I've even struggled with my academics in the past year. Engineering eats at your soul. I've even gotten skinnier than I thought I could be. I'm sleeping at 3-4 AM. My T levels are fucked up. I'm tired all the time. What's so fundamentally wrong with me that makes me so unloveable.
Every day was the fucking same:

Go to class.
Do basic surface level socializing.
Class ends.
Go to the cafeteria.
Have lunch alone.
Go to the library alone.
Study, listen to music and shit.
Class in the evening begins.
I attend.
It ends.
Go home.
Doom scroll IG.
Eat dinner.
Sleep.
Repeat.

I got 1.5 years left. And once that's over, I NEED A FUCKING JOB RELATED TO MY DEGREE, I NEED FUCKING MONEY.

Right?! And of course our andropausian/menopausian ass parents make it seem like college is fucking amazing, when in reality: its not and they were just blinded by nostalgia!

 

[Lurkercel_678]

I was extremely depressed at university. All around me people having friends and girlfriends and parties etc. and me with nothing. It was like being a homeless beggar in filthy rags sitting in the shadows on the street watching the millionaries go by. I quickly ended up just spending all my time in my room, shutting it out. When I did go out it was usually at night. If I had to go to something in the day, which obviously classes were in the daytime, I would leave at the last second and cycle. Passing all the people walking with their friends. Go to the class then immediately cycle home. Use the PC with my headphones on. Leave the lights off at night so no one could hopefully tell I was there. Yeah you could maybe see screen light under the door sometimes but it worked pretty well.

'If I hadn't seen such riches I could live with being poor.'

I'm not surprised fewer and fewer males are going to university. In fact more and more males are getting shut out of society more broadly. Dating, socialising, education, job, having a car, home ownership, family and kids, things are really deteriorating.

College does suck, I’m just gonna rotmaxx in my dorm and only study, fuck people and fuck socializing in this hellscape

 

[Lurkercel_678]

I wish I had the majority of college students’ college life.

It’s not even the majority, it’s just a lie, a fantasy

 

[chubby'n'bald scum]

Quick tip: study and take care of your career. In the Future, money Will be good for you even If you are alone.

Write down what you see. I have a small journal of my Chad friends' easy wins. It will preventing me from betabuxxing foids one day.

 

[Lurkercel_678]

Seeing people my age living their best lives and couples is killing me. I couldn't even be friends with women let alone date them. I've even struggled with my academics in the past year. Engineering eats at your soul. I've even gotten skinnier than I thought I could be. I'm sleeping at 3-4 AM. My T levels are fucked up. I'm tired all the time. What's so fundamentally wrong with me that makes me so unloveable.
Every day was the fucking same:

Go to class.
Do basic surface level socializing.
Class ends.
Go to the cafeteria.
Have lunch alone.
Go to the library alone.
Study, listen to music and shit.
Class in the evening begins.
I attend.
It ends.
Go home.
Doom scroll IG.
Eat dinner.
Sleep.
Repeat.

I got 1.5 years left. And once that's over, I NEED A FUCKING JOB RELATED TO MY DEGREE, I NEED FUCKING MONEY.

Also, just want to point out: offing oneself is the second cause of death among college students (behind accidents)

 

[Genetically Doomed]

It’s not even the majority, it’s just a lie, a fantasy

Cope!

 

[Acornvict]

Go to class.
Do basic surface level socializing.
Class ends.
Go to the cafeteria.
Have lunch alone.
Go to the library alone.
Study, listen to music and shit.
Class in the evening begins.
I attend.
It ends.
Go home.
Doom scroll IG.
Eat dinner.
Sleep.
Repeat.

Giga relatable

Pretty much my current routine except I don't have an evening class

 

[Notkev]

Giga relatable

Pretty much my current routine except I don't have an evening class

They suck man. The days I don't have those I don't even stay in uni after lunch.

 

[Notkev]

Quick tip: study and take care of your career. In the Future, money Will be good for you even If you are alone.

Write down what you see. I have a small journal of my Chad friends' easy wins. It will preventing me from betabuxxing foids one day.

That's a smart move. I should never forget the hell I experienced as an ugly dude.

 

[ordinaryotaku]

I've been in college for six years. Shit is miserable. I wish I took a trade instead.