There is an extremely beautiful escort who I have been seeing on average once a fortnight in the past year, (I met her in April of 2021 and it’s now April of 2022). so in total I must have fucked her like 25 times.
During that year, I saw her consistently once a week for a period of 6 months, and there was in total 6 months where I didn’t see her at all, broken up into 2 periods of 3 months: (3 month period of no escorting because of covid lockdown due to which the brothel was closed, and 3 Months of no escorting after she said she didn’t wanna see me).
December of last year, she told me that she didn’t want to see me again after I complained that she only saw me for 50 mins instead of the one hour that I paid For, she later explained to me that the hour includes 10 minutes for shower before she even enters the room. I thought that the one hour time only begins at the precise moment in which she enters the room.
Anyway after she told me she didn’t wanna see me, I went to the brothel within a few days just to see if she was serious about not wanting to see me, the girls come to the waiting room to show themselves to the customers and as soon as came to the waiting room and saw me, she said “NO” and walked away into one of the rooms and locked the doors, I argued with the receptionist and asked if I could talk to her but receptionist said that she didn’t even want to talk to me.
The sad reality is, I had fallen in love with this woman, Not only was she physically the most beautiful woman I had ever seen, she had an amazing personality.
I left the brothel feeling very suicidal, I was going to catch a train home and the thought came to me that maybe I should just put my head on the tracks and wait for a train to decapitate me. I decided, if I can’t get the woman I want, there is no point In living.
[UWSL]But before I was about to kill myself, a glimmer of hope kept me alive. I thought to myself, she isn’t seeing me in the present but what if I try again after 3 months? She might forget about what happened between us or she will remember it but she might forgive me after having some time to cool down.[/UWSL]
So i waited 3 months for her. Every day without her, I felt extremely depressed. I kept imagining other customers being able to fuck her and enjoy her body while I was missing out. And this once again made me feel suicidal.
At this point I could totally understand why Elliot Rodger took his own life, I was seeing the world from a similar perspective to him, just like Elliot Rodger I realised that I was missing out on experiencing something other men get to experience, that realisation filled me with pain, a pain which was so intolerable that being dead and feeling nothing at all seemed like a better alternative to experiencing such suffering.
The purpose of life is to experience pleasure and enjoyment but if you are unable to achieve that, then why bother to continue living when you aren’t even fulfilling life’s primary objective. Why continue to live a life of pain and suffering when you can end that pain/suffering early by prematurely taking your own life as an act of mercy upon yourself, and fade into the peace of the void.
If I can’t get pleasure and enjoyment, then I’d rather fade into nothingness than to experience a life of pain and suffering knowing that I can’t be with the woman I want.
But I kept hope that she would see me again, so I tried again in 3 months. Once I went back to the brothel, This time the boss himself was doing receptionist work, he sent me into the room after I booked my escort and paid him the money, without the escort knowing who was even booking her in the first place because this time my escort didn’t come into the waiting room to check who was booking her, she wasn’t expecting me because I hadn’t been there in so long, therefore she felt no reason to bother to check if I was trying to book her.
Anyway I showered for 10 minutes and then she came into the room, I said to her “hi babe”. She said to me “I told you I didn’t want to see you”. I asked “why?” She replied “I can’t give you any special service”.
Now I understand why she didn’t initially want to see me, it wasnt because I complained, she used that as an excuse when in reality she didn’t wanna see me cos she didn’t wanna do kissing and natural suck on me, even though I used to pay her $100 extra for both of them together.
So I said “fine, no special service”. Then she agreed to see me, otherwise she could have just walked out the room and brothel would have to give me a refund. Anyways I couldn’t get an erection due to nervousness and anxiety, wondering if she was gonna see me or not, so I couldn’t even fuck her, I just spend the time molesting her as she lay with her eyes closed, kissing her neck and cheeks, grabbing her ass and boobs, and I even gave her a massage. Then before I left, even though I received no special services (which cost extra on top of the base fee paid at the brothel), I gave her a $100 tip and asked “can you see me again?” To which she replied “ok”.
Anyways since then I have Been seeing her once or twice a week for the last 6 weeks, and every time I pay the hourly base price of $170 to the brothel (of which she received half: $85, and I also give her $100 cash for anal. We don’t just have sex, we talk a lot and connect on an emotional level as we explore each other’s personalities in addition to each other’s bodies
Anyways yesterday I didn’t have money for anal, but I didn’t want to tell her that I didn’t have money for it, so I said to her “babe, today I think I will just fuck pussy”. But to my surprise she said, “don’t worry you can do anal”. I replied “are you sure”? To which she said “yes of course”.
So she basically let me fuck her ass for free without even taking money from me for it, even though usually I have to give her $100. Also During the session, she said “your body is very nice” as she grabbed my muscles. At one point she even smacked my ass so hard that I was shocked at what was happening, I couldn’t believe it!
In the times when I used to see her before I had a 3 month break from her (after she said she didn’t want to see me again), She never showed any interest in me and sometimes never even talked to me or looked at me, and in the whole time that I’ve known her she also never gave me any discounts, but yesterday not only did she give me a discount she also showed what seemed like genuine attraction which is surprising because I’m a dark shitskin currycel 5’7 manlet with an average face, but I have a good body (6-pack abs with a lean, muscular physique).
[UWSL]Feel free to share your own escort chronicles, fellow escortcels[/UWSL]
During that year, I saw her consistently once a week for a period of 6 months, and there was in total 6 months where I didn’t see her at all, broken up into 2 periods of 3 months: (3 month period of no escorting because of covid lockdown due to which the brothel was closed, and 3 Months of no escorting after she said she didn’t wanna see me).
December of last year, she told me that she didn’t want to see me again after I complained that she only saw me for 50 mins instead of the one hour that I paid For, she later explained to me that the hour includes 10 minutes for shower before she even enters the room. I thought that the one hour time only begins at the precise moment in which she enters the room.
Anyway after she told me she didn’t wanna see me, I went to the brothel within a few days just to see if she was serious about not wanting to see me, the girls come to the waiting room to show themselves to the customers and as soon as came to the waiting room and saw me, she said “NO” and walked away into one of the rooms and locked the doors, I argued with the receptionist and asked if I could talk to her but receptionist said that she didn’t even want to talk to me.
The sad reality is, I had fallen in love with this woman, Not only was she physically the most beautiful woman I had ever seen, she had an amazing personality.
I left the brothel feeling very suicidal, I was going to catch a train home and the thought came to me that maybe I should just put my head on the tracks and wait for a train to decapitate me. I decided, if I can’t get the woman I want, there is no point In living.
[UWSL]But before I was about to kill myself, a glimmer of hope kept me alive. I thought to myself, she isn’t seeing me in the present but what if I try again after 3 months? She might forget about what happened between us or she will remember it but she might forgive me after having some time to cool down.[/UWSL]
So i waited 3 months for her. Every day without her, I felt extremely depressed. I kept imagining other customers being able to fuck her and enjoy her body while I was missing out. And this once again made me feel suicidal.
At this point I could totally understand why Elliot Rodger took his own life, I was seeing the world from a similar perspective to him, just like Elliot Rodger I realised that I was missing out on experiencing something other men get to experience, that realisation filled me with pain, a pain which was so intolerable that being dead and feeling nothing at all seemed like a better alternative to experiencing such suffering.
The purpose of life is to experience pleasure and enjoyment but if you are unable to achieve that, then why bother to continue living when you aren’t even fulfilling life’s primary objective. Why continue to live a life of pain and suffering when you can end that pain/suffering early by prematurely taking your own life as an act of mercy upon yourself, and fade into the peace of the void.
If I can’t get pleasure and enjoyment, then I’d rather fade into nothingness than to experience a life of pain and suffering knowing that I can’t be with the woman I want.
But I kept hope that she would see me again, so I tried again in 3 months. Once I went back to the brothel, This time the boss himself was doing receptionist work, he sent me into the room after I booked my escort and paid him the money, without the escort knowing who was even booking her in the first place because this time my escort didn’t come into the waiting room to check who was booking her, she wasn’t expecting me because I hadn’t been there in so long, therefore she felt no reason to bother to check if I was trying to book her.
Anyway I showered for 10 minutes and then she came into the room, I said to her “hi babe”. She said to me “I told you I didn’t want to see you”. I asked “why?” She replied “I can’t give you any special service”.
Now I understand why she didn’t initially want to see me, it wasnt because I complained, she used that as an excuse when in reality she didn’t wanna see me cos she didn’t wanna do kissing and natural suck on me, even though I used to pay her $100 extra for both of them together.
So I said “fine, no special service”. Then she agreed to see me, otherwise she could have just walked out the room and brothel would have to give me a refund. Anyways I couldn’t get an erection due to nervousness and anxiety, wondering if she was gonna see me or not, so I couldn’t even fuck her, I just spend the time molesting her as she lay with her eyes closed, kissing her neck and cheeks, grabbing her ass and boobs, and I even gave her a massage. Then before I left, even though I received no special services (which cost extra on top of the base fee paid at the brothel), I gave her a $100 tip and asked “can you see me again?” To which she replied “ok”.
Anyways since then I have Been seeing her once or twice a week for the last 6 weeks, and every time I pay the hourly base price of $170 to the brothel (of which she received half: $85, and I also give her $100 cash for anal. We don’t just have sex, we talk a lot and connect on an emotional level as we explore each other’s personalities in addition to each other’s bodies
Anyways yesterday I didn’t have money for anal, but I didn’t want to tell her that I didn’t have money for it, so I said to her “babe, today I think I will just fuck pussy”. But to my surprise she said, “don’t worry you can do anal”. I replied “are you sure”? To which she said “yes of course”.
So she basically let me fuck her ass for free without even taking money from me for it, even though usually I have to give her $100. Also During the session, she said “your body is very nice” as she grabbed my muscles. At one point she even smacked my ass so hard that I was shocked at what was happening, I couldn’t believe it!
In the times when I used to see her before I had a 3 month break from her (after she said she didn’t want to see me again), She never showed any interest in me and sometimes never even talked to me or looked at me, and in the whole time that I’ve known her she also never gave me any discounts, but yesterday not only did she give me a discount she also showed what seemed like genuine attraction which is surprising because I’m a dark shitskin currycel 5’7 manlet with an average face, but I have a good body (6-pack abs with a lean, muscular physique).
[UWSL]Feel free to share your own escort chronicles, fellow escortcels[/UWSL]
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