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Just me and my mom. My brother chose to sleep over at a friend’s house and my sister didn’t even bother to come downstairs because “she didn’t want the cake.”

I invited all of my “friends” to do a fire in the backyard. But they all conveniently had “family stuff.” When I put the word out yesterday, one said “sorry I can’t make it tonight” I told them that it was tomorrow and they said “I can’t make it then either.”

I feel so hollow. My mother is the only person who has ever shown me true kindness, and I will never live up to her expectations because I am ugly and autistic.
 
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How old are you now? Also Happy Bday
 
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Pengwin said:
How old are you now? Also Happy Bday
Thank you

I am 19
 
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Happy 19th birthday bro. Fuck your "friends", they're asshats for acting like this. Your sister/brother whatever can get fucked as well, it's a cruel world when not even your own siblings give a damn. My brother always ruined my bDays and my sister always threw a tantrum because she wanted to be center of attention..

Anyways man, happy birthday. Seriously.
 
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kongratz for surviving this long, bro
 
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Happy birthday
 
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Happy birthday brocel
Delete your "friends" from your life
 
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BummerDrummer said:
Happy birthday
Thank you bummer

I came back to 24 notifications from your tags over the past month or so:feelsohh:
Depressed_Trucel said:
Happy birthday brocel
Delete your "friends" from your life
They’ve already deleted themselves :feelsbadman:
 
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Happy birthday brocel. I hope the cake tastes good. I stopped bothering with birthday celebrations altogether because of this exact shit.
 
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Happy birthday
 
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AnonAutist said:
Happy birthday brocel. I hope the cake tastes good. I stopped bothering with birthday celebrations altogether because of this exact shit.
FlamingCel said:
Happy birthday
Thank you boys

I Honestly would prefer not to celebrate, but it makes my mom happy even if it’s just her and the dogs.
 
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Friends?

Stop hanging out with them as soon as possible
 
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FastBananaCEO said:
Friends?

Stop hanging out with them as soon as possible
I haven’t hung out with them in about a year and a half to two years or so.

A girl from my high school accused me of sexual harassment after I tried to ask her out my junior year, and I’ve been untouchable ever since even if they pretend to tolerate me.

I thought they’d at least come to hang out with me for an hour on my birthday.
 
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Very nice cake, happy birthday.
 
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Happy birthday mate. Remember that, even when you feel unloved and invisible, you have the right to exist, you have the right to express yourself, and you have the right to be heard
 
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Swimcell said:
Thank you

It was red velvet + cream cheese frosting with vanilla ice cream.

Red velvet is my favourite, I even have some in my fridge right now :feelsokman:
 
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Happy birthday mate. Remember that, even when you feel unloved and invisible, you have the right to exist, you have the right to express yourself, and you have the right to be heard
Thank you bro. I’m not suicidal or anything. Just coming to the realization that so much in life is decided for you before you’re even sentient.
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Red velvet is my favourite, I even have some in my fridge right now :feelsokman:
It’s my favorite as well. I made sure to ration it out so I can have it for desert for the next couple days.

I’ve heard that it’s just chocolate dyed red though.
 
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Happy birthday mate
 
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Happy birthday mate
Thank you brother

Parlez-vous français? J’apprend le Français pour le business.
 
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Happy birthday. Hope you got a cool gift
 
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Swimcell said:
Thank you brother

Parlez-vous français? J’apprend le Français pour le business.
Yes I speak French
 
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Over_this_Life said:
Happy birthday. Hope you got a cool gift
I got a cool looking pea coat, but when I tried it on remembered that it’s impossible to be stylish as an incel. I look like a retarded child.
Over_this_Life said:
Happy birthday. Hope you got a cool gift
I got a cool looking pea coat, but when I tried it on remembered that it’s impossible to be stylish as an incel. I look like a retarded child.
 
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I got a cool looking pea coat, but when I tried it on remembered that it’s impossible to be stylish as an incel. I look like a retarded child.
Nice. But Dont feel bad about how you look. I wear the same outfit several days in a row. Style is subjective anyway. I never cared what people thought about me
 
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Happy birthday anon! I would stop talking to those "friends", hope you have a great year ahead of you.
 
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Congratulations on making it this far. I felt really bad on my last birthday, it was another lonely one and I cried.
 
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Swimcell said:
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Just me and my mom. My brother chose to sleep over at a friend’s house and my sister didn’t even bother to come downstairs because “she didn’t want the cake.”

I invited all of my “friends” to do a fire in the backyard. But they all conveniently had “family stuff.” When I put the word out yesterday, one said “sorry I can’t make it tonight” I told them that it was tomorrow and they said “I can’t make it then either.”

I feel so hollow. My mother is the only person who has ever shown me true kindness, and I will never live up to her expectations because I am ugly and autistic.



brutal, i mean friends ok fuck them but why would your own sister not come down? I mean its literally just coming down the stairs
 
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Swimcell said:
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Just me and my mom.

I feel so hollow. My mother is the only person who has ever shown me true kindness, and I will never live up to her expectations because I am ugly and autistic.
I felt that brocel. I'm in the same situation except i have ok relationship with my sister and brother.

Remind of of a image where there is a magician and there is only his mother in the audience cheering him up, but i cant fucking find it.
 
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Happy birthday old man, how are you handling the university? Did you switch to STEM?
 
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Iercel said:
brutal, i mean friends ok fuck them but why would your own sister not come down? I mean its literally just coming down the stairs
My brother and sister are both half siblings and a couple years younger than me so we’ve had very different upbringings.

I grew up with a single dad stringing it out paycheck to paycheck and they grew up in a multimillion dollar mansion.
 
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Koruga said:
Happy birthday old man, how are you handling the university? Did you switch to STEM?
I ended up switching to international business with a focus on developing economies. I figure if I can’t make tech shit myself I might as well get rich selling it to African warlords :feelsYall:
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I felt that brocel. I'm in the same situation except i have ok relationship with my sister and brother.

Remind of of a image where there is a magician and there is only his mother in the audience cheering him up, but i cant fucking find it.
Damn just the description of that image hits me directly in the feels.
 
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I ended up switching to international business with a focus on developing economies. I figure if I can’t make tech shit myself I might as well get rich selling it to African warlords :feelsYall:
Hmmm, why is the change? you can elaborate better, you seemed very excited about robotics.
 
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Rheinkwell said:
Happy 19th birthday bro. Fuck your "friends", they're asshats for acting like this. Your sister/brother whatever can get fucked as well, it's a cruel world when not even your own siblings give a damn. My brother always ruined my bDays and my sister always threw a tantrum because she wanted to be center of attention..

Anyways man, happy birthday. Seriously.
 
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Koruga said:
Hmmm, why is the change? you can elaborate better, you seemed very excited about robotics.
It’s just too late for me to reasonably get into robotics in any meaningful way. If I could go back in time I would, but with my current situation I’d just be setting myself up as a wage slave technician.
 
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Doxxed your name "Christian", sending the FBI over rn
But on a serious note my birthday is coming up soon too and it will be just as unexciting. It's crazy how all of us incels experience the same birthdays
 
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Happy Birthday OP.

I'd come to your house tbh if I was your friend (partly because I've never been invited to a party).
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I would stop talking to those "friends", hope you have a great year ahead of you.
 
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Happy birthday OP.

My 21st is coming up soon and I plan on getting absolutely destroyed and getting shit faced every day until I run out of money :feelsEhh:
 
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Happy birthday!!! I once tried having a birthday party when I was 8-9yo but only 2 people out of the many I invited showed up and it got pretty boring. Since then I only ''celebrate'' it alone or with my parents
 
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I'm 19 too, happy birthday! I know what it feels like, so when I got invited to birthdays as a kid I'd always go no matter what. Even if you don't like the person, who'd refuse free food hehe.
 
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And so will be the next birthdays.

It never began
 
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Happy birthday man!

Im 19 too,turning 20 soonish
 
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Happy birthday and may the best copes come your way :feelsYall:
 
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Colvin76 said:
Happy birthday and may the best copes come your way :feelsYall:
Sportbro said:
Happy birthday man!

Im 19 too,turning 20 soonish
PaneerPaneer said:
I'm 19 too, happy birthday! I know what it feels like, so when I got invited to birthdays as a kid I'd always go no matter what. Even if you don't like the person, who'd refuse free food hehe.
Thank you bros

I’m glad I’ve got you guys:feelsautistic:
 
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Congratulations

Also, I hate this goddamn society. No-one gives a shit about us
 
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Congratualtions on surviving another battle OP
Cowcel said:
Since then I only ''celebrate'' it alone or with my parents
You still have inner strenght to celebrate your birthdays? Mogs me.
 
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happy birthday fellowcel!that cake looks good and i am on a diet so i would probably devour that cake in a day(i am a fatass kek).i would celebrate with you if i had the chance to.