i cant even muster up the motivation enough to wageslave to save money. i can only get myself to wage maybe 2 days a week, the minimum to fuel my food and purchases expenditure.
i delude myself with thinking if i can one day learn fluent spanish and go to mexico i could turn my life around. but deep down i know that this is pure cope and my life will be probably only worse. i cant even delude myself enough in order to work more than 2 days a week to save up money to go for the trip. i simply sustain a minimalist lifestyle and cant bring myself to expend more of my life to sheckleberg just to save money to go on what will be a failure of a trip.
i'm still going to keep learning spanish though. i hope that if i can pass on of the offical language tests that shows im at a B2 level, plus get some shit customer service certification, i can pay a professional resume maker to magic me up the holy paper and use it to apply to remote bilingual customer service jobs. I think I can realisticly reach this goal in two years time.
by then I will be 27 years old, and have still done absolutely nothing with my life. I stay healthy though, relatively. I exercise, and eat pretty decently. I stay away from too much stress, its just bad news ontop of inceldom. So I think I can probably maintain decent health and be fit and feel good throughout my 30s. so perhaps there is some hope for me to have good experiences in my life.
however, what could possibly happen to me in the future that will turn my mind around from the first 30 years of my life being dog shit?
i delude myself with thinking if i can one day learn fluent spanish and go to mexico i could turn my life around. but deep down i know that this is pure cope and my life will be probably only worse. i cant even delude myself enough in order to work more than 2 days a week to save up money to go for the trip. i simply sustain a minimalist lifestyle and cant bring myself to expend more of my life to sheckleberg just to save money to go on what will be a failure of a trip.
i'm still going to keep learning spanish though. i hope that if i can pass on of the offical language tests that shows im at a B2 level, plus get some shit customer service certification, i can pay a professional resume maker to magic me up the holy paper and use it to apply to remote bilingual customer service jobs. I think I can realisticly reach this goal in two years time.
by then I will be 27 years old, and have still done absolutely nothing with my life. I stay healthy though, relatively. I exercise, and eat pretty decently. I stay away from too much stress, its just bad news ontop of inceldom. So I think I can probably maintain decent health and be fit and feel good throughout my 30s. so perhaps there is some hope for me to have good experiences in my life.
however, what could possibly happen to me in the future that will turn my mind around from the first 30 years of my life being dog shit?
