I was LDARing and watching a show and in the first few episodes they give you the background of the protagonist and his friends and show you long montages of him and his friends having fun and enjoying their teenage years, while watching I remembered that I never had that kind of thing.
I never had any friends to go out with and have fun and enjoy my childhood and teenage years, I spent all my childhood getting beaten/physically abused by my parents and siblings and getting bullied at school, and I spent my teenage years rotting in my room alone.
I was never invited to anything or offered to hang out with anyone because I wasn't "interesting" or "popular" (keyword for ugly and socially retarded), the only time anyone ever interacted with me in school or irl was to bully me or use me.
I never had any friends to go out with and have fun and forget about life for a sec, instead my parents never let me out and treated me like I'm an autist, they never let me out of the house as a kid because they were afraid I would get beaten or bullied or some shit (even though they themselves beat the shit out of me and abused me for years and watched my siblings beat me too and didn't do anything nice fucking logic, words can't describe how happy I will be on the day I see them all dead. 
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This is just a vent post, I'm not looking for advice I'm already used to the normie cringy "advice".
TL.DR: I watched a show that reminded me that I never had any friends.
I never had any friends to go out with and have fun and enjoy my childhood and teenage years, I spent all my childhood getting beaten/physically abused by my parents and siblings and getting bullied at school, and I spent my teenage years rotting in my room alone.
I was never invited to anything or offered to hang out with anyone because I wasn't "interesting" or "popular" (keyword for ugly and socially retarded
), the only time anyone ever interacted with me in school or irl was to bully me or use me. I never had any friends to go out with and have fun and forget about life for a sec, instead my parents never let me out and treated me like I'm an autist, they never let me out of the house as a kid because they were afraid I would get beaten or bullied or some shit (even though they themselves beat the shit out of me and abused me for years and watched my siblings beat me too and didn't do anything
nice fucking logic, words can't describe how happy I will be on the day I see them all dead. )This is just a vent post, I'm not looking for advice I'm already used to the normie cringy "advice".
TL.DR: I watched a show that reminded me that I never had any friends.
