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Deleted member 43976
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- Jun 26, 2022
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My first post here. And yes, the title is about me. I'm young, but I already know it's over. I've never had even a single friend in my entire life, I've never interacted with a woman that's not a family member other than them mocking or humiliating me. I've been severely bullied both in school and in the apartment complex I lived by other children. I'm black and that alone makes me less from others, in fact, the majority of people that mistreated me in my life were white. I'm 5'7 and shorter than the majority of people where I live, adults and teen boys around my age alike and even girls. I've had acne since I was 14 and still haven't cleared no matter how much I try. I have stretch marks in my body because I rapidly gained weight in the past and after losing it I'm now skinny fat. I have big, protruding ears. My nose is too big. I gave a gap in my upper front teeth and they're all yellow. I have low self-steem, non-existent confidence, I can't maintain eye contact, don't know how to keep a conversation going, I'm too shy to talk to people. I also have concentration and memory problems, I'm very slow to complete tasks that require a minimum amount of intelligence and patience. I still can't do basic math. Basically, I'm doomed to fail. I'm not only ugly, but an unintelligent social-outcast as well. I'm currently out of school due to depression and instead of doing my treatment I spend all my days masturbating and watching porn because I have a crippling addiction. I started to become depressed when I was 14 and have had suicidal thoughts daily since then. What's your guys opinion?