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virgin4life
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When I realized I will be incel for the rest of my life at 21 I spend the next 12 years LingDARing with a work at home job (web developer). I lived of very little money and only did an occasional job every now and then. I spend the rest of the time masturbating and watching porn. Sometimes I would masturbate 20 times a day for 10 days in a row. I literally did nothing other than masturbating for years.
In the beginning I was turned on by regular porn. I had been watching porn since I was a young boy. Back then it felt like I was doing something forbidden (I had to hide from my parents etc) and that made it only more exciting. Over time, however, it got boring and I started fapping to BDSM a lot. Back then there were sites like insex which had really fucked up degenerate content and I had insane orgasms from it. I never tried real drugs like heroine but I had orgasms that can hardly be less intense than heroine. Bitches being pissed on while bound and gagged, swallowing gallons of piss or cum, being caned and whipped in very extreme ways.
However, the more BDSM shit I consumed the more boring regular porn became for me.
Now I can not fap to regular porn at all. I can not masturbate to the idea of having sex with a woman. And I believe I wouldn't be able to have sex with a woman. I wouldn't be able to get my dick hard. Maybe if I could cane her till she bleeds I would get a boner but which woman would let me do that?
I think I won't ever be able to have sex at this time. Probably even a Stacy wouldn't get my dick hard.
Did anyone have a similar problem and did Nofap help at all?
In the beginning I was turned on by regular porn. I had been watching porn since I was a young boy. Back then it felt like I was doing something forbidden (I had to hide from my parents etc) and that made it only more exciting. Over time, however, it got boring and I started fapping to BDSM a lot. Back then there were sites like insex which had really fucked up degenerate content and I had insane orgasms from it. I never tried real drugs like heroine but I had orgasms that can hardly be less intense than heroine. Bitches being pissed on while bound and gagged, swallowing gallons of piss or cum, being caned and whipped in very extreme ways.
However, the more BDSM shit I consumed the more boring regular porn became for me.
Now I can not fap to regular porn at all. I can not masturbate to the idea of having sex with a woman. And I believe I wouldn't be able to have sex with a woman. I wouldn't be able to get my dick hard. Maybe if I could cane her till she bleeds I would get a boner but which woman would let me do that?
I think I won't ever be able to have sex at this time. Probably even a Stacy wouldn't get my dick hard.
Did anyone have a similar problem and did Nofap help at all?