Eternatus
I shall surrender to the darkness beneath me
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In 2014 my second-degree niece was born, she’s my cousin’s daughter. When she was a bit older, I gave her my Hotwheels and some Pokémon cards I had (I was already aware that something wasn’t quite right with me back then, but I couldn’t hold any resentment toward a little girl). So she played with them, even though she already had plenty of toys since her parents could afford it.
Don’t call me white knight for this I beg u.
But as she grew more self aware, I started to notice during the few times I visited family that she seemed to have trouble looking at me. She always kept her distance, quiet, as if she somehow knew there was something wrong with me but couldn’t yet identify it. She’s growing up now and is almost 12, and I don’t go to Christmas or family events anymore even because of this. That’s not only her, family started to act distant from me as I grew uglier. I couldn’t bear the humiliation.
Don’t call me white knight for this I beg u.
But as she grew more self aware, I started to notice during the few times I visited family that she seemed to have trouble looking at me. She always kept her distance, quiet, as if she somehow knew there was something wrong with me but couldn’t yet identify it. She’s growing up now and is almost 12, and I don’t go to Christmas or family events anymore even because of this. That’s not only her, family started to act distant from me as I grew uglier. I couldn’t bear the humiliation.





