Reminds me that I fucked it all up before ahahahaha nigga that girl (she had BPD and also Autism i think) made me lose it like completely man. Goddammit I only talked with her for 5 FUCKING DAYS why couldn't it have been more IDGAF she was 15 i'm only 3 years older than her AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AND THAT WAS THE ONLY MOMENT I EVER FELT CARED ABOUT BY A GIRL
Trash trash trash trash trash fuck... Anyways, it's true. I wonder if she knew right away I was codependent and was just using me for validation... But either way man fuck I HATE THIS SHIT all it took was 1 fucking moment of me creeping her out (because I told my brocel I was going to self-harm after he told her that I loved her from our private pms).
I'm never going to get over this man. Oh my god man... fuckkkk... I always wonder what could have happened day after day after day... God even after this I still find her so hot and she was basically inundating me with attention 24/7 she totally knew it, she knew it (either that or she didnt but still) it just fucking hurt it hurt so much.
I swear