Venting Better to just stay inside

[Kamanbert]

I went for a night ride. Drove quite far to completely different parts of town, the ones that are quieter, cleaner and that used to make me feel some kind of way when i was younger, some type of peaceful melancholy. It was fun at first but on a very surface level cause i feel the darkness creeping in 24/7 anyway. Then it overran my mind as usual and the whole world became a mirror of my failures, my solitude, of what never was and never will be, it's not a place where i belong ! it's so much better to just stay inside, outside is always so awful. It's not like i was unfamiliar with the feeling but fuck it's so potent now that i needed to vent. It must be a symptom of true despair and zero hope. I feel so washed out and old at 31...

 

[4sez]

Relatable.

 

[Kamanbert]

Relatable.

Brutal shit mang.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I feel the same way, like staying inside is the only place I belong. Like the world outside is just a reminder of everything I've lost and will never have.

 

[Kamanbert]

I've been all alone since i'm 12. Sometimes i dont even know what to think anymore, i'm some kinda fucked up mutant.

 

[Kamanbert]

I feel the same way, like staying inside is the only place I belong. Like the world outside is just a reminder of everything I've lost and will never have.

Yes. But are you an oldcel ? Cause this kind of thoughts really started to kick in around 28 for me, well not exactly but it was gradual and i felt a very big change especially around that age. I was kinda carefree when younger.

 

[HotDogCel]

cant rot inside a for too long so I go outside, get demotivated and come back inside.
Walking in an empty forest or near the ocean in winter is still peacefull tho.

 

[Kamanbert]

get demotivated and come back inside.

The incel cycle.

 

[curryboy420]

I'm always in my car smoking joint so in a way I'm always outside so I get to see everyone drive and walk past all day and everyone is kinda losers here I feel like I could have been a normie here if my life went a bit different and my brain and body were a little different not a huge lot was required

 

[BSGMANLET]

The incel cycle.

 

[WeirdPanda]

Sometimes I feel like the world is too large for me. I wish it was smaller.