Serious Being ugly is one thing... constant disrespect ("indirect") is another. (today as well)

[TheGrayWolf]

All I wanted was to go swim in the lake because it's very warm, but I overheard several mean comments about me (in hindsight I should have just stayed home or gone to the forest where there are no-very few people, but that's not fair).

I had earphones in, unfortunately no music playing, but I have excellent and sensitive hearing. Not a lot of people were there either but even 2 can ruin it all!


I already hate looking in the mirror, I don't need to overhear comments about how weird I look, or evil stares. I wish they said it directly to me, then I could react accordingly.



I can't express in words how much it hurts,
I come home to lick my wounds.

 

[Jacket]

They need Jason Voorhees.

 

[poorenglishcel]

Ngl every person just ignores me when i am forced to leave my house. Idk if they show looks of disgust or not cause i am always looking at the floor. It must be very brutal to be hated and not just left to your own devices.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

They need Jason Voorhees.

I see what you did there haha (I'd never do anything like that guy -- for anyone who's worried/paranoid)

But yeah, humans really aren't nice, I wish they would just keep their thoughts to themselves. I'm autistic, deformed and it really hurts me -- the disrespect and the implications.

 

[boneless goblin]

I feel comfortable in shorts while swimming.
I feel like a fucking king of the sea who's there to conquer the seas.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Ngl every person just ignores me when i am forced to leave my house.

I wish they did that. I mean I also always try to avoid people's gaze and I often wear a baseball hat, but sometimes I just notice them doing it even out of the corner of my eye or I look up randomly.

Sadly I can't just turn off my hearing

Idk if they show looks of disgust or not cause i am always looking at the floor. It must be very brutal to be hated and not just left to your own devices.

True. It's people of all ages and genders that do it tbh mostly young men and young women (but also older people).

 

[TheGrayWolf]

I feel comfortable in shorts while swimming.
I feel like a fucking king of the sea who's there to conquer the seas.

Good for you I can't my main problem is my head and face, and I also have a deformed body/back and thousands of green dots.

When I overheard these comments I still had my shirt on. There were very few people there but 2 boys said to each other he looks weird (meaning my face/head).

Accepting I'm ugly and never getting a gf (I'm almost 30) is one thing... much harder is accepting the constant disrespect. I'm prove that most humans are bad!

 

[boneless goblin]

Good for you I can't my main problem is my head and face, and I also have a deformed body/back and thousands of green dots.

When I overheard these comments I still had my shirt on. There were very few people there but 2 boys said to each other he looks weird (meaning my face/head).

Accepting I'm ugly and never getting a gf (I'm almost 30) is one thing... much harder is accepting the constant disrespect. I'm prove that most humans are bad!

yup .
Most people hate ugly men .
They wouldn't want you near them.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

yup .
Most people hate ugly men .
They wouldn't want you near them.

Yeah, SAD that I have to regret not just staying at home or going to the forest where there are no people
I always expect people reacting like that yet I'm still very hurt by it, it's destroying me

 

[boneless goblin]

Yeah, SAD that I have to regret not just staying at home or going to the forest where there are no people
I always expect people reacting like that yet I'm still very hurt by it, it's destroying me

Sorry you have to face that brother.
No matter what you do , people would just hate you for being a tryhard.
If you try to be nice and helpful even then they'll hate u and call u creepy.

It's better to just stay alone and isolate.
Try the hours and place where people are really not present and just stay inside.
Never get up.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Sorry you have to face that brother.
No matter what you do , people would just hate you for being a tryhard.
If you try to be nice and helpful even then they'll hate u and call u creepy.

It's better to just stay alone and isolate.
Try the hours and place where people are really not present and just stay inside.
Never get up.

Thanks man, appreciate it. You are right of course. But it's still a sad sad life either way, right?

I still live with my mom at almost 30, because of my ausitm and I don't have a job and no money (I study 100% remotely/online), soon I need to find a job.

 

[boneless goblin]

Thanks man, appreciate it. You are right of course. But it's still a sad sad life either way, right?

I still live with my mom at almost 30, because of my ausitm and I don't have a job and no money (I study 100% remotely/online), soon I need to find a job.

it's brutal.
Unless you need money survive, a job is not worth it.
If she can pay for your expenses then maybe juat rot.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

Sorry you have to face that brother.
No matter what you do , people would just hate you for being a tryhard.
If you try to be nice and helpful even then they'll hate u and call u creepy.

It's better to just stay alone and isolate.
Try the hours and place where people are really not present and just stay inside.
Never get up.

Also I really don't wanna go on like this, on the days I've stayed home completely I feel a little better even if I have hundreds of bad memories that keep flooding back.
And I think, why did you IDIOT GO TO THE LAKE AND NOT THE FOREST/WOODS, IT'S "COOL" (TEMPERATURE) THERE TOO BUT I REALLY WANTED TO SWIM BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO HIDE

 

[TheGrayWolf]

it's brutal.
Unless you need money survive, a job is not worth it.
If she can pay for your expenses then maybe juat rot.

sorry I keep adding comments, I'll stop now. THANK YOU though brother

 

[TheGrayWolf]

it's brutal.
Unless you need money survive, a job is not worth it.
If she can pay for your expenses then maybe juat rot.

true! she is and has always paid but she can't afford it soon anymore, as my dad is retired now

OK I'LL STOP NOW

 

[boneless goblin]

true! she is and has always paid but she can't afford it soon anymore, as my dad is retired now

OK I'LL STOP NOW

you're a nice man.
Enjoy yourself brother, cuz there's nothing else in this world for us.

 

[TheGrayWolf]

you're a nice man.
Enjoy yourself brother, cuz there's nothing else in this world for us.

Thanks bro, appreciate it.

 

[boneless goblin]

Also I really don't wanna go on like this, on the days I've stayed home completely I feel a little better even if I have hundreds of bad memories that keep flooding back.
And I think, why did you IDIOT GO TO THE LAKE AND NOT THE FOREST/WOODS, IT'S "COOL" (TEMPERATURE) THERE TOO BUT I REALLY WANTED TO SWIM BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO HIDE

Yea, you should evaluate things next time more carefully.

 

[boneless goblin]

Thanks bro, appreciate it.

no problem graywolf