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Mainländer
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I am both high T and high libido and very romantic. For several years I used porn and prostitutes to surrogate the sexual necessities and waifus, anime, VNs and daydreaming to surrogate my romantic ones.
I accepted that pornography isn't something good and neither is adultery, so I decided to quit it, and it has been 9 days today. But then again I had my waifu plan. I have been researching the subject though and everything leads me to believe that having a waifu is not something acceptable for a Christian to do either.
Unfairness in this world is something we're all very familiar with, but what when the unfairness gets even in the way of your salvation? A Christian Chad can most likely marry a young virgin gl Christian girl, but what can I do? I can't fap or fuck prostitutes, and I can't even have a waifu? Being both sexless and romanceless, even in thought, is for me a titanic burden. I think about women all the time, be them 2D or 3D. Right now, at 9 days without fapping, it's been through the roof, sexual shit come into my mind all the time, I think about some practices that I wouldn't even do IRL, so deprived that I am.
Again, if I had the option of marrying a decent wife, I would put tons of effort into fulfilling all my needs just with her, but I don't have that option.
Being ugly sucks. It's a curse only surpassed by serious disability or torture, not even being dirt-poor is worse than being ugly. Even having an IQ of 50 must feel better than being ugly. And to boot, even though my standards aren't very high, I'm only really attracted to girls a lot younger than myself, which is the final nail on the coffin, it's 100% nuclear over for the ugly AND old me.
I accepted that pornography isn't something good and neither is adultery, so I decided to quit it, and it has been 9 days today. But then again I had my waifu plan. I have been researching the subject though and everything leads me to believe that having a waifu is not something acceptable for a Christian to do either.
Unfairness in this world is something we're all very familiar with, but what when the unfairness gets even in the way of your salvation? A Christian Chad can most likely marry a young virgin gl Christian girl, but what can I do? I can't fap or fuck prostitutes, and I can't even have a waifu? Being both sexless and romanceless, even in thought, is for me a titanic burden. I think about women all the time, be them 2D or 3D. Right now, at 9 days without fapping, it's been through the roof, sexual shit come into my mind all the time, I think about some practices that I wouldn't even do IRL, so deprived that I am.
Again, if I had the option of marrying a decent wife, I would put tons of effort into fulfilling all my needs just with her, but I don't have that option.
Being ugly sucks. It's a curse only surpassed by serious disability or torture, not even being dirt-poor is worse than being ugly. Even having an IQ of 50 must feel better than being ugly. And to boot, even though my standards aren't very high, I'm only really attracted to girls a lot younger than myself, which is the final nail on the coffin, it's 100% nuclear over for the ugly AND old me.
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