Truecels only, mentalcels/volcels faggots stfu, this post is not for your eyes
I remember how my life was before 11, my soon to be hideous facial feature was still just a minor imperfection, I used to see the world so nice, and humanity so comfy, I interacted with people without almost any negative memories, I started to create my personality of an innocent, yet ambitious person, my grades before middle school were the highest, and the teachers used to tell I was going to be Nobel winner, woman actually were just that, people like males, who I can interact without provoking with it things I can still vividly remember
Then puberty comes, and I converted from day to night from average kid to the more close you can to be to 1/10 without being born with it, needless to say, bullying made school an hell, females converted into those primitive beasts without empathy when they were pretty much human therefore, my grades collapsed, all my interests, from biology, to fitness, psychology(I was pretty obsessed with serial killers for obvious reasons) become nubious and irritant copes for me as I got older and society treating like garbage everyday continued.
I'm 20, and I'm still not in college, I made a promise to never go there until I finish my surgerymaxxing, never again, I say proudly, will someone that is inferior to me I everything but looks will even look at me even with pity, I pass days and nights thinking about my face and how the consequences for having it deformed trough the period that was supposed to be full of social experiences for the turned to be, and even when I managed to talk to my parents, the theme of conversation always end in that:my face, and the obvious recordatory that they only to made some x-rays to have covered by insurance, I should have lived my life normally, yet those fucking whores my mother to up, decided simply to forget about it, since looks are not everything, yeah, easy to tell when you don't look like a monster.
Even if I manage to surgerymaxx, I will still be empty inside, there's nothing in my carcass but hatred, when I finally manage to stick my dick into some cunt there will not be pleasure at all, because how i can feel it when you know the cumrag is only reacting to hormones released thanks to millions of years of evolutionary programming? marriage and whatever kind of LTR is out of my mind, since I see the true face of females when you dare to born unlucky as a a male, Is like loving a Nazi, impossible.
In resume, I will be like a houellebecq novel character, always cinic, sex will have the emotional significance for me as eating, literally just fulfilling a biological need, nothing else, nothing more.
I remember how my life was before 11, my soon to be hideous facial feature was still just a minor imperfection, I used to see the world so nice, and humanity so comfy, I interacted with people without almost any negative memories, I started to create my personality of an innocent, yet ambitious person, my grades before middle school were the highest, and the teachers used to tell I was going to be Nobel winner, woman actually were just that, people like males, who I can interact without provoking with it things I can still vividly remember
Then puberty comes, and I converted from day to night from average kid to the more close you can to be to 1/10 without being born with it, needless to say, bullying made school an hell, females converted into those primitive beasts without empathy when they were pretty much human therefore, my grades collapsed, all my interests, from biology, to fitness, psychology(I was pretty obsessed with serial killers for obvious reasons) become nubious and irritant copes for me as I got older and society treating like garbage everyday continued.
I'm 20, and I'm still not in college, I made a promise to never go there until I finish my surgerymaxxing, never again, I say proudly, will someone that is inferior to me I everything but looks will even look at me even with pity, I pass days and nights thinking about my face and how the consequences for having it deformed trough the period that was supposed to be full of social experiences for the turned to be, and even when I managed to talk to my parents, the theme of conversation always end in that:my face, and the obvious recordatory that they only to made some x-rays to have covered by insurance, I should have lived my life normally, yet those fucking whores my mother to up, decided simply to forget about it, since looks are not everything, yeah, easy to tell when you don't look like a monster.
Even if I manage to surgerymaxx, I will still be empty inside, there's nothing in my carcass but hatred, when I finally manage to stick my dick into some cunt there will not be pleasure at all, because how i can feel it when you know the cumrag is only reacting to hormones released thanks to millions of years of evolutionary programming? marriage and whatever kind of LTR is out of my mind, since I see the true face of females when you dare to born unlucky as a a male, Is like loving a Nazi, impossible.
In resume, I will be like a houellebecq novel character, always cinic, sex will have the emotional significance for me as eating, literally just fulfilling a biological need, nothing else, nothing more.
