Venting Being born was a mistake

[Caesercel]

There is literally nothing to live for. No drive left. Back in the days I used to think that becoming a STEMcel and making lots of money and getting a gf would bring happiness to my life. I failed at all of those and now realise that none of it matters.

I can't enjoy money even though I have more than I need but still way less than I wanted. At which point one might ask what's the point of chasing money or career for it's own sake? I can't even enjoy sex and feel no need for women or their company.

Everyday I question the point of continuing just about anything at all. I used to to think that I'm depressed because I fucked up my life but what good would come from becoming a corporate slave and having 10x money in my account. To buy consumer slop?

I miss the old days when I was still a hopecel and was still connected to this world and it's bs. When I still wanted things from life

 

[lugubriouseanastar]

Life’s only purpose is to reproduce, and I’m incapable of doing so. Logically, I would have been better off never having been born.

 

[Animecel2D]

How to undo this mistake?

 

[Caesercel]

How to undo this mistake?

The other day I was watching antichrist and that shot of a dead fox rotting away completely took me by surprise. Didn't mean to laugh at a horror movie about depression.

 

[5'4 king of khhv]

Life is nothing so what is your hope?

 

[Rapistcel]

There is literally nothing to live for. No drive left. Back in the days I used to think that becoming a STEMcel and making lots of money and getting a gf would bring happiness to my life. I failed at all of those and now realise that none of it matters.

I can't enjoy money even though I have more than I need but still way less than I wanted. At which point one might ask what's the point of chasing money or career for it's own sake? I can't even enjoy sex and feel no need for women or their company.

Everyday I question the point of continuing just about anything at all. I used to to think that I'm depressed because I fucked up my life but what good would come from becoming a corporate slave and having 10x money in my account. To buy consumer slop?

I miss the old days when I was still a hopecel and was still connected to this world and it's bs. When I still wanted things from life

It's pointless to wageslave when you barely can enjoy the things you buy.

 

[Ogostt]

How to undo this mistake?

Become Buddhist monk and reincarnate

 

[chalk son]

there are a few things i still appreciate but i just feel disconnected from everything to the point dissociation is an absolute chronic vacation. abusing it is dangerous because it shows what you mentioned, the question of what am i continuing to be in my flesh prison for?

 

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There is literally nothing to live for. No drive left. Back in the days I used to think that becoming a STEMcel and making lots of money and getting a gf would bring happiness to my life. I failed at all of those and now realise that none of it matters.

I can't enjoy money even though I have more than I need but still way less than I wanted. At which point one might ask what's the point of chasing money or career for it's own sake? I can't even enjoy sex and feel no need for women or their company.

Everyday I question the point of continuing just about anything at all. I used to to think that I'm depressed because I fucked up my life but what good would come from becoming a corporate slave and having 10x money in my account. To buy consumer slop?

I miss the old days when I was still a hopecel and was still connected to this world and it's bs. When I still wanted things from life

many such cases.

 

[Caesercel]

many such cases.

Ritalincelass nigga

 

[Cuckoja]

Get married and have kids if you can. It might make you happy having to care for, live for and to love others instead of yourself.

 

[superpsycho]

Life’s only purpose is to reproduce, and I’m incapable of doing so. Logically, I would have been better off never having been born.

 

[Sex-Starved Beast]

I wonder if you would've felt the same, had you achieved what you wanted in career and with women. Funny how nihilism takes the people who failed and couldn't get what they wanted.

 

[Caesercel]

I wonder if you would've felt the same, had you achieved what you wanted in career and with women. Funny how nihilism takes the people who failed and couldn't get what they wanted.

Well as I said I have surrogates and even they don't mean much. Sure I don't have a girl but I've been with hookers and it does nothing. And I may not be rich like I wanted but I don't have money problems either. Could buy any copes I want, the things I used to want as a kid and youth. But I don't even spend money because there's no fulfillment there.