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I think the biggest problem for many here is just not having a girlfriend (because even friends they have), and I understand, they don't have to worry about things like the economy or mental problems caused by bad experiences like bullying and things of that level, so all the suffering is focused on not having a girl or being very ugly if they are, I can't blame them I guess...
I don't want to over put my problems before theirs but only here I can vent without being so judged, being a poorcel and living in one of the most third world countries is horrible, being ugly and not having money even for basic things is the worst, even being a wagiecel I can't afford something meaningful, I have no way to deal with the mental problems I no longer know if I was born with or developed them throughout my life, I've always been weird and passive, a total beta, I can't control it, that's how I've always been, as much as I've tried to be normal, like everyone else, I can't do it, I don't fit in here, the world is too much for me, it's more than clear it never began...
Being someone different from others, added to the fact that I am ugly and short, I had to endure social rejection and bullying in my social life, I would like to say that only at school but no, in the street and in the family sphere itself I have been treated as an outcast, it is assumed that being poor here people should be focused on other issues but no, they still judge you and even if they are starving they trample you if you are different, what garbage, right?
My life is complete shit, I'm supposed to try to go to a university but I have no motivation to do anything, I'm tired, like I've already lived my whole life, I can't give more, anyone would say I'm too young to give up but hey, I've always been weak, and everything has seemed to be against me, also where I live the opportunities are null, although you study you have more guaranteed failure than anything, jobs pay badly and low quality education, and surely I would also go very bad socially in a university or some job, I have no will or interest to even try, I just want to die, I wish it disappeared right now, it is the only thing I want every day now...
I have almost nothing to cope with, I don't even have a cell phone, just this old pc that isn't even mine, it's the only thing I can distract myself with daily, I have nothing to play video games on, no hobby that can make me escape from reality enough, at least I can sleep but it's always time to wake up and go back to the same thing, it sucks, just seeing my house depresses me, I feel how inferior I am in so many aspects to many, not only physically and mentally, but also in economy, I have no ways to show you how my life is but for sure if I did everyone would agree that dying is the best thing that could happen to me, sometimes I try to pretend that nothing happens, that I don't feel like that, but it's just a self deception, I am ruined and sick, it's over since I started to exist.
Sorry for my english and so much text (I'm sorry if you're in a worse situation than me and you read this)
I don't want to over put my problems before theirs but only here I can vent without being so judged, being a poorcel and living in one of the most third world countries is horrible, being ugly and not having money even for basic things is the worst, even being a wagiecel I can't afford something meaningful, I have no way to deal with the mental problems I no longer know if I was born with or developed them throughout my life, I've always been weird and passive, a total beta, I can't control it, that's how I've always been, as much as I've tried to be normal, like everyone else, I can't do it, I don't fit in here, the world is too much for me, it's more than clear it never began...
Being someone different from others, added to the fact that I am ugly and short, I had to endure social rejection and bullying in my social life, I would like to say that only at school but no, in the street and in the family sphere itself I have been treated as an outcast, it is assumed that being poor here people should be focused on other issues but no, they still judge you and even if they are starving they trample you if you are different, what garbage, right?
My life is complete shit, I'm supposed to try to go to a university but I have no motivation to do anything, I'm tired, like I've already lived my whole life, I can't give more, anyone would say I'm too young to give up but hey, I've always been weak, and everything has seemed to be against me, also where I live the opportunities are null, although you study you have more guaranteed failure than anything, jobs pay badly and low quality education, and surely I would also go very bad socially in a university or some job, I have no will or interest to even try, I just want to die, I wish it disappeared right now, it is the only thing I want every day now...
I have almost nothing to cope with, I don't even have a cell phone, just this old pc that isn't even mine, it's the only thing I can distract myself with daily, I have nothing to play video games on, no hobby that can make me escape from reality enough, at least I can sleep but it's always time to wake up and go back to the same thing, it sucks, just seeing my house depresses me, I feel how inferior I am in so many aspects to many, not only physically and mentally, but also in economy, I have no ways to show you how my life is but for sure if I did everyone would agree that dying is the best thing that could happen to me, sometimes I try to pretend that nothing happens, that I don't feel like that, but it's just a self deception, I am ruined and sick, it's over since I started to exist.
Sorry for my english and so much text (I'm sorry if you're in a worse situation than me and you read this)
