autism and incel trait: you relive all the bad moments you've ever had

[aesthetic_recon]

I legit hate being cursed with both autism and self-awareness. It's like I'm dissociated from myself and watching myself crash a car in slow motion. And I keep fucking up. I may have to kill myself soon. I keep reliving every faux pas and cringey and awful moment of my life and it's getting too much to bear. Something triggers it, and then I have to relive these moments where I fucked up badly again. I hate having to live through this. Plus I struggle with schizoaffective disorder and severe OCD so my life is just fucked. I think I'm going to kill myself soon. It fucking sucks. If I do kill myself, I hope God will have mercy on my soul.

 

[aesthetic_recon]

really the only reason i haven't killed myself yet is that i'm scared and don't have access to any guns. but i can't take this shit anymore man. whatever. i'll probably just live through it and bear the pain. fuck it man. i hate my life, and i hate myself. i never learn. im just a fucking idiot

 

[Winter War]

Just build up the rage and go ER in videogame theory

 

[EngelCallDell19]

yup happens all the time and it makes me so fucking embarrassed, even if its not my fault im just embarrassed at the failure

 

[ElTruecel]

The tragic ones yes. The embarrassing ones I cringe too hard when i recall them

 

[Lonelyus]

I legit hate being cursed with both autism and self-awareness. It's like I'm dissociated from myself and watching myself crash a car in slow motion. And I keep fucking up. I may have to kill myself soon. I keep reliving every faux pas and cringey and awful moment of my life and it's getting too much to bear. Something triggers it, and then I have to relive these moments where I fucked up badly again. I hate having to live through this. Plus I struggle with schizoaffective disorder and severe OCD so my life is just fucked. I think I'm going to kill myself soon. It fucking sucks. If I do kill myself, I hope God will have mercy on my soul.

 

[cripplecel]

Yes

 

[NorthernWind]

You can read or learn something in order to not be consumed by your thoughts all the time.

 

[yung loner]

My autism causes me to loop embarrassing memories over and over throughout the day. It's torture

 

[Caelus]

You’re just going through puberty. Chill out.

 

[Overman]

You’re just going through puberty. Chill out.

Cope, I'm 27 and it haunts me on a constant basis.

 

[aesthetic_recon]

Cope, I'm 27 and it haunts me on a constant basis.

fax

 

[ThisShitIsOva]

My autism causes me to loop embarrassing memories over and over throughout the day. It's torture

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

That's what everyone does before bad that aren't content

 

[Autistic Uggo]

I also suffer with this. I'm cursed with having an extremely vivid memory, so I remember almost every social faux pas I've ever made.

 

[The_word_made_flesh]

I legit hate being cursed with both autism and self-awareness. It's like I'm dissociated from myself and watching myself crash a car in slow motion. And I keep fucking up. I may have to kill myself soon. I keep reliving every faux pas and cringey and awful moment of my life and it's getting too much to bear. Something triggers it, and then I have to relive these moments where I fucked up badly again. I hate having to live through this. Plus I struggle with schizoaffective disorder and severe OCD so my life is just fucked. I think I'm going to kill myself soon. It fucking sucks. If I do kill myself, I hope God will have mercy on my soul.

I would encourage that you reconsider ,there can be hope ! Feel free to DM