Attempted suicide - Failure

[Spooky_Heejin]

I'll get to the point. 5 Months ago, I got rejected for around the 50th time in a row. With the depression of knowing I'll never procreate, I tried to kill myself. I put my glock in my mouth, got about 3/4 of the trigger pull, hesitated, yanked it out and accidentally snatched the trigger blowing off half my face. It was a dumb, I know that. I'll likely get made fun of. I understand why.

To get to my question, I am getting this awful depression again, and was curious how some of you guys can continue moving through life knowing you'll never have a romantic partner in your life. I don't see a point at all. This is my first time posting on here. Sorry if I broke any rules, some of them are little vague to me.

 

[bad]

You won't get made fun of here for that.

Only leftists and foids would beat a man down in his weakest state.

I'm sorry to hear that went through that and now this is your situation.

This is a community of social rejects and outcasted men without a purpose. You can vent and say all you want, your speech isn't limited

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

You won't get made fun of here for that.

Only leftists and foids would beat a man down in his weakest state.

I'm sorry to hear that went through that and now this is your situation.

This is a community of social rejects and outcasted men without a purpose. You can vent and say all you want, your speech isn't limited

Thank you, that means a lot to me. Perhaps I've spent too much time on twitter.

 

[bad]

Thank you, that means a lot to me. Perhaps I've spent too much time on twitter.

You shouldn't go on Twitter. That place is a leftish hell of an echo chamber.

Many of us here come here and spend a lot of time on this forum. This is one of the last remaining bastions of free speech online

 

[5ft4ropeconnoisseur]

That's fucking horrible. I don't much else to say. Sorry brocel

 

[wereq]

accidentally snatched the trigger blowing off half my face.

You serious? How bad is your face now?

 

[BlackCel_from_ZA]

I'll get to the point. 5 Months ago, I got rejected for around the 50th time in a row. With the depression of knowing I'll never procreate, I tried to kill myself. I put my glock in my mouth, got about 3/4 of the trigger pull, hesitated, yanked it out and accidentally snatched the trigger blowing off half my face. It was a dumb, I know that. I'll likely get made fun of. I understand why.

To get to my question, I am getting this awful depression again, and was curious how some of you guys can continue moving through life knowing you'll never have a romantic partner in your life. I don't see a point at all. This is my first time posting on here. Sorry if I broke any rules, some of them are little vague to me.

I think this is larp but if it isnt my condolences to you brocel

 

[Twinkcel]

Please don’t try to kill yourself. I hope you get over your depression and continue to live happily. I’m over 30 years old and I stopped caring about having a gf or a family maybe at some point you will stop caring too and your depression will go away.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

You serious? How bad is your face now?

I lost about half my nerves on the left side of my face. I can't squint my left eye when it's bright outside and my smile looks more messed up than it used too. It doesn't hurt anymore, however there's an awful scar on it. There's a huge burn mark from the gunpowder explosion along with an exit wound scar.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

I think this is larp but if it isnt my condolences to you brocel

I understand why you think it's larp. And thank you for condolences.

 

[Balding Subhuman]

I heard about this one guy who got his face blown out like that, a long time ago. He robbed a store, police got on his tail and he tried to an hero himself, and failed.

Where do you live? Maybe SSI is an option for someone like you.

Being an incel is one thing but having a disfigured face is another. Maybe the officials might feel some pity towards you and you'll get neetbuxx for the rest of your life.

Being incel is traumatic but I think there are worse problems out there. The fact that women are not willing to give me a chance is one of the least of my problems. Being ugly in general and being treated like shit everywhere you go is the worst part. And that's constant. That's why the fact that women refuse to fuck me isn't really the worst part out there. I can handle loneliness and being rejected, even if its painful. But I can't handle normies.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Please don’t try to kill yourself. I hope you get over your depression and continue to live happily. I’m over 30 years old and I stopped caring about having a gf or a family maybe at some point you will stop caring too and your depression will go away.

You're right. I should give it more time. Thank you.

 

[wereq]

I lost about half my nerves on the left side of my face. I can't squint my left eye when it's bright outside and my smile looks more messed up than it used too. It doesn't hurt anymore, however there's an awful scar on it. There's a huge burn mark from the gunpowder explosion along with an exit wound scar.

Damn! This is why I hate the idea of using guns for suicide. Rope is the best. Its the easiest to setup and can be tested unlike poisons or firearms.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Damn! This is why I hate the idea of using guns for suicide. Rope is the best. Its the easiest to setup and can be tested unlike poisons or firearms.

I tried a rope before. I broke the ceiling fan from my roof and it smashed my skull. It was hard to make up a story on what happened when my parents walked in the room.

 

[wereq]

I tried a rope before. I broke the ceiling fan from my roof and it smashed my skull. It was hard to make up a story on what happened when my parents walked in the room.

Your anchor point and rope have to be sturdy and strong.

 

[Mecoja]

I lost about half my nerves on the left side of my face. I can't squint my left eye when it's bright outside and my smile looks more messed up than it used too. It doesn't hurt anymore, however there's an awful scar on it. There's a huge burn mark from the gunpowder explosion along with an exit wound scar.

Damn sorry to hear that, thats the risk with most of the suicide methods, they can leave you alive in worse or even vegetative state. My mindset is when I die, ill die. Time is flying fast anyway. Did the police confiscated your gun?

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Damn sorry to hear that, thats the risk with most of the suicide methods, they can leave you alive in worse or even vegetative state. My mindset is when I die, ill die. Time is flying fast anyway. Did the police confiscated your gun?

Technically it was my Dad's firearm. They didn't confiscate it.

 

[im done]

I'll get to the point. 5 Months ago, I got rejected for around the 50th time in a row. With the depression of knowing I'll never procreate, I tried to kill myself. I put my glock in my mouth, got about 3/4 of the trigger pull, hesitated, yanked it out and accidentally snatched the trigger blowing off half my face. It was a dumb, I know that. I'll likely get made fun of. I understand why.

To get to my question, I am getting this awful depression again, and was curious how some of you guys can continue moving through life knowing you'll never have a romantic partner in your life. I don't see a point at all. This is my first time posting on here. Sorry if I broke any rules, some of them are little vague to me.

Fucking brutal
I hope your face didn't turned more subhuman

 

[IceStorm]

I think this is larp but if it isnt my condolences to you brocel

 

[NonNTsubhuman]

If real post pics ffs, cringe if ur larping and making all this shit up for attention like a fkn toilet

 

[AsiaCel]

Don't kill yourself. There are lots of alternatives

 

[decembrist_kirillov]

just fucking lol

 

[LouBloomCel]

I cope a lot, i play video games, i drink everyday.

 

[Alone75]

My inceldom, plus having a life that sucks in general is a constant worry and feel I have a dark cloud over me. I just carry on regardless and I feel obliged to stick around while my adoptive mother [real one gave me up at birth] is here and needs taking care of as she's 80 now. As soon as she's dead, I'll have no reason to stick around except for a minimum wage part time job and a totally empty life.

If I'd blown half my face off, I'd have just finished the job tbh.

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

My mindset is when I die, ill die. Time is flying fast anyway

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Brutal, hope ur doing better now

 

[Over 9000]

I'll get to the point. 5 Months ago, I got rejected for around the 50th time in a row. With the depression of knowing I'll never procreate, I tried to kill myself. I put my glock in my mouth, got about 3/4 of the trigger pull, hesitated, yanked it out and accidentally snatched the trigger blowing off half my face. It was a dumb, I know that. I'll likely get made fun of. I understand why.

To get to my question, I am getting this awful depression again, and was curious how some of you guys can continue moving through life knowing you'll never have a romantic partner in your life. I don't see a point at all. This is my first time posting on here. Sorry if I broke any rules, some of them are little vague to me.

take the white pill/stoic pill.read discourses of Epictetus will help a lot

 

[Jeffery Epstein]

So you are severely disfigured? Sorry man, that's absolutely brutal.

As for how we are able to keep on living, you find a cope to distract yourself as much as possible. I am able to keep the reaper at bay with games, food and porn currently, but every cope has an end so roping is unfortuantely inventiable.

 

[copiumdealer]

I’ve never had the balls to do it like you, but I often fantasize of pulling the trigger on a sawed off double-barrelled shotgun, underneath my chin….

When that oceanGate submarine tragedy happened, they were talking about how apparently all 5 passengers within that vessel, didn’t feel anything when that submersible imploded.
It happened so fast, that the brain couldn’t react to it.
Now I ask myself this question:
Will I feel any pain whatsoever when I pull a trigger?
Or is it just lights out instantly and a quick painless death ?

 

[HeroinNihilism]

no face for ur face

 

[BoliMeKurac]

You lost half of your face?! Damn! Do you walk in the streets with a half of a face or are you in a hospital handicapped?
How did you parents reacted?

 

[Wolnir]

LARP

 

[MillionBashStream97]

I would hope you don't get made fun of here...

There's no answer to your question besides, cope until you can't cope no more... It unfortunately really is that bleak.

There's no cure to "I don't have a girlfriend, friends, family" misery, other then suddenly getting those things. And even then, the mental scars of not having those things for so long, stay with you forever.

I wish I had something positive to say, but I truly don't.
I just hope you can find a cope that brings you a tiny bit of happiness.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

Fucking idiot. If you would be serious, you would not fail multiple times. You only made your situation worse. Why did you not finish the job the first time you had the chance?

I am supposed to believe that you shot yourself in the mouth and can write here after that like a normal man? Photos containing your nickname, date, face and "SIEG HEIL!" handwritten to a A4 paper that you are holding in your hand or did not happen.

 

[deadmanwalking124]

I'd never make fun of you for that, shit I want to blow my brains out most days too.

To answer your question, there's a few things that keep me going. I still enjoy weed and alcohol and video games. Mostly though, it's spite that keeps me going. Foids and society at large have proven beyond the shadow of a doubt that they want my bloodline dead and the few times I've gotten closest to ending it, I thought about the fact that me pulling the trigger would be giving them the subconscious satisfaction they're looking for. Fuck that, they're gonna have to look at my ugly ass until I'm good and well ready to go out.

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

all we can hope for is for less or the same amount of negativity today as tomorrow, it's when it's a constant state of flux shit like this happens

 

[Logic55]

Women believe that it is not important for men to have a romantic partner, they are deluded

 

[pcell]

Never kill yourself… normalfags and jews want you to kill yourself
Continue to live and spit in their faces

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

I’ve never had the balls to do it like you, but I often fantasize of pulling the trigger on a sawed off double-barrelled shotgun, underneath my chin….

When that oceanGate submarine tragedy happened, they were talking about how apparently all 5 passengers within that vessel, didn’t feel anything when that submersible imploded.
It happened so fast, that the brain couldn’t react to it.
Now I ask myself this question:
Will I feel any pain whatsoever when I pull a trigger?
Or is it just lights out instantly and a quick painless death ?

Not sure if this helps, but I felt nothing in my face at first with all of the adrenaline. The whole thing felt like a dream. I could stick my tongue out from my cheek. It was a surreal feeling. It's probably painless if it goes through your brain.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

If real post pics ffs, cringe if ur larping and making all this shit up for attention like a fkn toilet

I'd post photos, however I'm worried that gore-porn websites would get their hands on it. I don't trust the internet to that extent.

 

[AsianKungFao]

Damn! This is why I hate the idea of using guns for suicide. Rope is the best. Its the easiest to setup and can be tested unlike poisons or firearms.

You can get brain damage from rope

 

[wereq]

You can get brain damage from rope

Only if your rope tears, anchor fails, or if you're discovered. The rope that I have is 12 mm thick for mountain climbing with a very very high weight threshold, so no chance of failure there. Regarding my anchor point, I intend to buy a power rack which is 8 feet tall (picture below). These racks are heavy duty and built to be able to bear thousands of pounds.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

How did it feel after the adrenaline wore off and what caliber was the pistol?

9x19. That cartridge has some serious potency at point blank range.

 

[oofy]

Roping is bad, never rope. But if you did end up roping, then don't fail, that's foid behavior

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Roping is bad, never rope. But if you did end up roping, then don't fail, that's foid behavior

I broke my ceiling fan during my first rope attempt.

 

[nettle]

I'll get to the point. 5 Months ago, I got rejected for around the 50th time in a row. With the depression of knowing I'll never procreate, I tried to kill myself. I put my glock in my mouth, got about 3/4 of the trigger pull, hesitated, yanked it out and accidentally snatched the trigger blowing off half my face. It was a dumb, I know that. I'll likely get made fun of. I understand why.

To get to my question, I am getting this awful depression again, and was curious how some of you guys can continue moving through life knowing you'll never have a romantic partner in your life. I don't see a point at all. This is my first time posting on here. Sorry if I broke any rules, some of them are little vague to me.

Every man deserves the right to a dignified end.

 

[CurryOnTheSand]

I wish Euthanasia was legal

 

[StepyAkermanskie]

Please brocel, don't kill youself. It's exactly what the foids and Jews want. You are better than that, and you are more worthy than society makes you think that you are. Everyone of us has a God's particle in our souls. You have been given a hard life, but those who got a little are requied to also only bring a little to God, and will be gently and understandably judged. While chads and foids were given almost everything, but they decided to throw it away and live in a hedonist life. But they will be judged harshly, because those who got a lot are requied to bring a lot.

May you find peace in your life brocel

 

[The Darkcel]

Damn bro, I'm sorry to hear about this.

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

Please brocel, don't kill youself. It's exactly what the foids and Jews want. You are better than that, and you are more worthy than society makes you think that you are. Everyone of us has a God's particle in our souls. You have been given a hard life, but those who got a little are requied to also only bring a little to God, and will be gently and understandably judged. While chads and foids were given almost everything, but they decided to throw it away and live in a hedonist life. But they will be judged harshly, because those who got a lot are requied to bring a lot.

May you find peace in your life brocel
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Damn bro, I'm sorry to hear about this.

Thanks guys. I appreciate this a lot.