Sheogorath
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It feels like if that's the still case (it sometimes is f
or me) that we haven't truly embraced despair.
It used to be that years ago this type of shit repulsed me https://gelbooru.com/index.php?page=post&s=list&tags=ugly_man+1girl+1boy
Now though, it has a certain appeal, like it's easier to identify with, I guess?
The more you embrace hopelessness then the more hopeless a self-insert would need to be, for you to more easily place yourself in the fantasy.
If stuff like this is harder to fap to than drawings of chads fucking girls then emotionally you still perceive yourself as chad. Mentally you may know you are not, but deep down you are still bluepilled and think you're chad-adjacent or chad-capable enough to self-insert as the bishounen the girl enjoys.
Seeing girls drawn enjoying ugly guys (or maybe not entirely: perhaps a mixed reaction of mostly revulsion with a slight hint of arousal... maybe) is cool to me because it made me think "maybe she didn't like him at first but then sex felt good because he was persistent and she grew to love him".
This is also why I enjoy tsundere situations where she looks repulsed (at first) because that is a believable genuine reaction which hopefully can change if she gives things a chance to (or even if she doesn't)
I dunno why but even "it's obviously this is just sex for money" art looks kinda cool too... escorts are more belieable avenues of getting sex, so even though it's the non-ideal scenario, it works better as cope-fuel since it requires less lying to onself to accept.
If we plan to live to 40+, 50+, 60+ without roping, this is the type of degenerate shit we're probably going to need to learn to accept and embrace.
You teencels/20s are far enough away that you don't need to accept it just yet, there's no pressure to. Fellow agingcels might have a better idea what I'm talking about, once you've become a male christmas cake.
One of the problems here I guess is since you know instinctively that ugly guys outnumber good-looking guys 10:1 accepting that a girl accepts intimacy with one can lead you to think she accepts it with MANY which is probably true.
There is instinctive revulsion to this (it is evolved) but I do sometimes wonder if I should overcome it. There's mixed things here: it's bad that other guys have sexual access, but good she would have sexual empathy to share with us.
the only other option is non-con stuff and while I do sometimes like the art it's the type of thing I'd too moral-fag about to do IRL
(you don't have any guaranteed mindbreak ahegao moment where she grows to be ultimately be fulfilled by your ugly cock like in a storybook ending so you can't justify temporary rape unhappiness)
which means the options are either "a girl openminded enough to fuck me who probably is openminded towards other guys too" biddycope (it's only cuck if you're in denial about it) or blue balls forever where only I can operate my own onahole and never shall I just get to lie back and let a foid milk me as I desire.
the journey to ascend and coom .. if it already leads to a path where we accept that it's okay to fuck escorts (who obv fuck other guys for money) then if the alternative is girls who fuck other guys due to her empathy (instead of for money) is that really so much worse?
It's like the idea she's willing to fuck other incels would be so repulsive (it's somehow less bad if she's just doing it to get money and finds them repulsive?) that this outweighs our desire to be fucked out of empathy and to save up our bux to buy tendies?
Or maybe we are prone to a self esteem issue where we don't think we deserve empathy (embodying the dehumanizing concepts of IT and co, demonizing us as subhumans) that the concept is seen as bad, scary, unworthy of trust?
maybe we think so low of ourselves sometimes that to love us would lower a foid in our eyes and make us not desire her?
I sometimes hope (and cope) that deep down there is some small part of cute girls who would appreciate ugly guy attntion just like they appreciate ugly dog attention
or maybe they just feel dead inside an do it with ulterior motives 100% of the time I dunn
It used to be that years ago this type of shit repulsed me https://gelbooru.com/index.php?page=post&s=list&tags=ugly_man+1girl+1boy
Now though, it has a certain appeal, like it's easier to identify with, I guess?
The more you embrace hopelessness then the more hopeless a self-insert would need to be, for you to more easily place yourself in the fantasy.
If stuff like this is harder to fap to than drawings of chads fucking girls then emotionally you still perceive yourself as chad. Mentally you may know you are not, but deep down you are still bluepilled and think you're chad-adjacent or chad-capable enough to self-insert as the bishounen the girl enjoys.
Seeing girls drawn enjoying ugly guys (or maybe not entirely: perhaps a mixed reaction of mostly revulsion with a slight hint of arousal... maybe) is cool to me because it made me think "maybe she didn't like him at first but then sex felt good because he was persistent and she grew to love him".
This is also why I enjoy tsundere situations where she looks repulsed (at first) because that is a believable genuine reaction which hopefully can change if she gives things a chance to (or even if she doesn't)
I dunno why but even "it's obviously this is just sex for money" art looks kinda cool too... escorts are more belieable avenues of getting sex, so even though it's the non-ideal scenario, it works better as cope-fuel since it requires less lying to onself to accept.
If we plan to live to 40+, 50+, 60+ without roping, this is the type of degenerate shit we're probably going to need to learn to accept and embrace.
You teencels/20s are far enough away that you don't need to accept it just yet, there's no pressure to. Fellow agingcels might have a better idea what I'm talking about, once you've become a male christmas cake.
One of the problems here I guess is since you know instinctively that ugly guys outnumber good-looking guys 10:1 accepting that a girl accepts intimacy with one can lead you to think she accepts it with MANY which is probably true.
There is instinctive revulsion to this (it is evolved) but I do sometimes wonder if I should overcome it. There's mixed things here: it's bad that other guys have sexual access, but good she would have sexual empathy to share with us.
the only other option is non-con stuff and while I do sometimes like the art it's the type of thing I'd too moral-fag about to do IRL
which means the options are either "a girl openminded enough to fuck me who probably is openminded towards other guys too" biddycope (it's only cuck if you're in denial about it) or blue balls forever where only I can operate my own onahole and never shall I just get to lie back and let a foid milk me as I desire.
the journey to ascend and coom .. if it already leads to a path where we accept that it's okay to fuck escorts (who obv fuck other guys for money) then if the alternative is girls who fuck other guys due to her empathy (instead of for money) is that really so much worse?
It's like the idea she's willing to fuck other incels would be so repulsive (it's somehow less bad if she's just doing it to get money and finds them repulsive?) that this outweighs our desire to be fucked out of empathy and to save up our bux to buy tendies?
Or maybe we are prone to a self esteem issue where we don't think we deserve empathy (embodying the dehumanizing concepts of IT and co, demonizing us as subhumans) that the concept is seen as bad, scary, unworthy of trust?
maybe we think so low of ourselves sometimes that to love us would lower a foid in our eyes and make us not desire her?
I sometimes hope (and cope) that deep down there is some small part of cute girls who would appreciate ugly guy attntion just like they appreciate ugly dog attention
or maybe they just feel dead inside an do it with ulterior motives 100% of the time I dunn