- Aug 30, 2023
Im a 28 khhv with never ending bad luck. I want to rope before turning into a wizard. As soon as things get better for me even worse shit happens soon after. I am terrified of even being happy now or receiving any good news as I know something bad is soon to come. I find comfort in misery and being sad as i am used to it. My face has morphed into perma state of dead/no hope look which make people ask am I alright. I tried to rope, even got to the point of hanging the rope and tightening the noose but i just remember my mom and how heartbroken she would be. So i stay alive. Im afraid if my mother passes away i am going to do it. Anyone else not rope cuz of mom or dad yet? Sure after u rope , ur misery ends but it becomes worse for the people who care about u. The only thing in which im lucky in is having a mom who cares for me and it sucks at the same time as i cannot escape this brutal life.