I am a disgusting person and I know that.
Yes.
Actually I love myself ngl
I hate my shit body, but consider myself
Disgusted by femoids
I would be if I had a choice in the matter of how my life is.
How can I have any disgust, regret, or anything for something I had no control of?
It literally never began for me, and I'm not exaggerating when I say it never began. I am not your average above-average IQ STEMcel could have been a doctor but was just lazy/depressed. I literally had no path to go down that led anywhere lol.
How can I have any disgust, regret, or anything for something I had no control of?
It literally never began for me, and I'm not exaggerating when I say it never began. I am not your average above-average IQ STEMcel could have been a doctor but was just lazy/depressed. I literally had no path to go down that led anywhere lol.
That's why life hurts so much for me. I was gifted I know I could have done better but I ended up a failure.
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yes but that will change if i get money
disgusted by some of the choices I made, regret saying some shit and regret not saying some when I needed to, disgusted by some of the vile thoughts I had. physically I accepted myself as I am. I could unironically can use some personality improvements though it's not related to attracting women because personality does not matter to them but can use it for myself ngl. I should be working harder for a better, comfortable, NEET future for nobody is going to help me if I fuck up and end up on streets. but pretty lazy unfortunately.
yeah, I hate myself.
Maybe im just able to be brutally honest with myself, and say yes, I am dumb, I look at my history in education and I was fucking awful at everything, even primary/high school stuff I was a total dumb ass with. Even when I tried studying everyday for hours on end it made little difference to my grades. I ended up dropping out because it was hopeless. My parents had me tutored outside of school hours, I did all the extra shit, and I still couldn't do shit. The autismbux people got me into university with an autism freepass and I had no chance at doing uni level shit, lol they actually didn't believe me when I said I am dumb "ooh no anon youre not dumb teehee, you can do it" Yeah right cunt LMAO.
I notice a trend in incel communities, a lot of incels claim they were really smart, got really great grades, but ended up flunking out due to depression or something that fucked up their brain or something and they couldn't study, but I wonder how much of this is cope, to claim you a gifted kid, but you fucked it up some how, because you didn't do shit properly or something, I don't know.
What I wonder is, how does someone who is smart fail at education/work? Don't you literally just do the work, hand in the stuff, take the exams,and if you're so gifted, wouldn't you just get a perfect score, and then get offers at top jobs for the related high end STEM degree you did? I mean, if you're intelligent it should come easy to you, no?
I wonder how many of this "I was gifted, but I fucked up" is just cope.
Indifferent
i've worked hard to make myself not disgusting (fix teeth, control weight and hair loss) and the only thing that disgusts me is how it hasn't changed anything
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No.
I am such an individual
Faced endless rejection (at least 30+ approaches, my will waning with each one lol)
Got rejected by a 3.5/10 and that killed me (I was in my prime of looks then, put on some weight now)
Every girl I went after got snatched up or was already dating, everybody in my class was dating/married I was just that single lonely guy
One of my best friends killed himself
Etc, etc, etc
University was hell for me, I used to love academics, I used to enjoy studying, but the realization of the black pill blatantly in my face everyday killed that passion, I could no longer cope, I was wasting my time at university, that degree wasn't going to help me get the things I actually wanted, nor would dating or "getting married", I abandoned my old path that was leading nowhere
If I had stayed I probably would have killed myself by now
The prospect of getting a degree to have to spend the rest of my life working for and with normies, became too depressing, I was just tired of life, and academics are not something you can excel in if you don't even care about waking up the next day, cramming endless points of useless shit you'll never actually need to know isn't tolerable at that point, and ironically when I started working, I haven't used any of the shit that I learned in my years of "higher education"
Much rather pursue entrepreneurship
What you are saying here is ridiculous, its like arguing that there only exists 100% and 0% and there's nothing in-between, there are different levels of "gifted", I am pretty decent academically, always did pretty well, I knew a guy who would always beat me regardless of whether he studied a lot or not, one day I asked him how he does it, turns out he has photographic memory, he's probably a doctor by now (that was his career path)
You really are dumb if this is your logic, in order for there to be a "fastest runner in the world" there has to be other runners that are also fast but not as fast as him, same with intelligence, some people are smart enough to "get by" but they have to study regularly and put in extra hours to grasp the content unlike those who are just geniuses or have special talents (like photographic memory) and don't have to work as hard to perform well
It seems like you are arguing you are either a genius or you are dumb, and there's no in-between
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Being gifted doesn't mean you're perfect. Everyone has flaws. And if life goes wrong a certain way, life will exploit those flaws of yours and make you fail.
All I said was that I was gifted and didn't go into detail such as examples because I feared I might get a warning for brag and get my comment deleted for saying positive things about myself. It seems like in these forums we're not allowed to say positive things about ourselves so I decided to make this self loathing thread. Maybe I just don't know yet how these forums work, I am new here.
What about curry and rice doctors. They stay incel and still become doctors. If I was high IQ I would have become a doctor even as incel, just for the fact I could do it. Being intelligent would seem like fun, especially if you can actually do a fun job and get paid well and you’re just high IQ so it’s easy pezzy
1. You speak if there has never been a curry or rice incel dropout, as if you know every curry/rice incel that exists lol
2. A lot of these people come from different cultures and lives where desperation is prevalent, they don't study because they enjoy studying, they have no choice but to succeed, if the alternative is living in a slum or having to becoming some sweat shop factory worker, you don't have the option to "drop out", especially when you have family depending on you
You think there haven't been suicides because of this?
Not if you had no reason to, there are people with children who go to work everyday to jobs they hate BECAUSE THEY HAVE CHILDREN, if they could, they'd just stop working and take some time off, its easier to give up on a life path WHEN YOU CAN AFFORD TO DO SO
You likely had no reason to keep pushing and keep struggling, so you stopped, if you felt like you had no choice, you would have forced yourself to atleast do moderately well, with great effort on your part and very little sleep
Again intelligence is on a scale, I don't see how you can't get this, you are speaking as if there is only one level of "smart", you were saying that people who think they dropped out because of depression are coping, have you ever thought its just you coping, because based on how you speak about intelligence, it seems like you are trying to give yourself an excuse, the excuse that because academics doesn't come easily to you, you just dumb, and therefore have the excuse not to try and just give up
I was honest with myself, I knew I could have finished my degree if I kept on struggling and worked harder, I just didn't want to any longer, I was on the verge of suicide and completely tired of life, a degree didn't mean anything to me anymore
No. Foids are disgusted with me. I won't be disgusted with myself for something i can't control: looks.
I see what you’re saying. But studying never did anything for me. Information never stuck in my head, and my focus was and is still impossible because autism causes me to focus on irrelevant thoughts. My brain is selective in what it will learn, it will only take on specific focused in bits of information and never the whole picture. Sight, sound and smell and lighting distract me easily, so I can’t even focus on driving a car.
Me copeing would be a situation where I was able to learn and do well, but decided to not do it, which just isn’t true. I see no point in lying. What purpose does lying serve here?
You act like high IQ is the b-all end-all. Haven't you seen the Youtube documentaries that shows the Americans with the highest IQ's ended up being bouncers? Having a high IQ doesn't guarantee success in life.
And since you keep on talking about academics, you should know that having a high IQ is not the most important skill in that, but it's actually just being a good student. The kids with the highest grades in class are just the ones who are best at learning and taking exams, not the best in IQ. I have a best friend from college and we both liked each other due to our intellects. He finished university with flying colors while I stopped school. I shared to him a free IQ test I took online and guess what our results were, he scored average while I scored high. You see IQ doesn't mean you're good at school, being good at school means you're good at school!
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You had no real reason to focus though, I'm not discounting your experiences, I have mild autism and I experience the same thing, likely to a lesser extent, I'm constantly day dreaming and my mind is always racing and jumps from random thought to random thought, but if I had actual reasons to focus and work hard I would have kept at it, same for you, if you had a GF that cuddling with you every day and sucking you off every weekend, I'd bet my life you would have gotten a degree, when you have nothing good going for you in life, especially in the realm of sex, when everyone else around you is having a great time and enjoying it all, you just don't have the motivation
I literally feel myself becoming depressed just typing this shit out and remembering my time and university, like I'm reliving it, just thinking about it drains me of will power, which is why I trying not to even think about that time
This, what people don't seem to get is that school is about absorbing and regurgitating information, if that doesn't interest you and worse yet feels boring to you (it did for me), you aren't going to be very good at it
Yet every placed I've worked at they've said I'm one of their best workers, I get promoted quickly, I always become the guy that is depended on at work because I come up with solutions quickly and I'm diligent
School doesn't show you how real life works and how one will perform in real life
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I instinctively think in my head "kill, kill, kill" when I see my face in the mirror. It's so ugly and asymmetrical that I don't identify with it and it takes a couple seconds to remember that I'm looking at myself. I hate myself and I want to die, I cannot live like this because I can never associate this face with my conscience and be content with that. Literal facial disfigurement is made a mockery of in America, I have a minor disfigurement, but it's still enough to make me look absolutely subhuman. No amount of therapy or pills can change something that only a surgeon can fix, yet fixing my injury isn't covered by insurance even thought tranny surgery is. I'm left to fail again and again at attempts to get enough money to have a human looking face before it's too late until I kill myself to escape the shame of living with this asymmetry into my 30's. Meanwhile the man ruined my face has a wife and kids, a good job and a house of his own. I hate myself, I hate myself more than anyone else because I'm the one trapped behind this face and forced to live this worthless life.
Interesting. Again I am low IQ so I don’t know about the world of gifted students and educational success, I just assumed everyone who succeeded was high IQ and I was too autistic and stupid to ever do it myself based on my experiences in school of not being able to ever learn anything
Fuck you.
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Indifferent.
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I can't look in the mirror without imagining someone else should be there and I mumble about the way things should be while turning off the lights and washing my hands.
I'm pathetic and useless in everyway, god I'm such a waste of space
Yes. Although I think determinism is true to a large extent, I seem to have made all the wrong choices in my life. It's mostly not my fault, but I still can't stand myself and my existence. I'm on 2 anti-depressants but I still feel like shit unless I manage to use my autism + some alcohol to enjoy my autistic copes.
No, but if I continue this way I'll be soon
I am an abomination.
I am definitely below average looking.
I am not tall.
I am socially retarded.
I am horribly incompetent.
I am self-sabotaging.
I am 'studying' a meme field and even can't pull it due to crippled mental health.
I have no interesting, unique or good quality, I am just another mediocre garbage.
So yes I am disgusted at what I become, probably even more than women when they see me.
I hate nothing more than myself.
I am definitely below average looking.
I am not tall.
I am socially retarded.
I am horribly incompetent.
I am self-sabotaging.
I am 'studying' a meme field and even can't pull it due to crippled mental health.
I have no interesting, unique or good quality, I am just another mediocre garbage.
So yes I am disgusted at what I become, probably even more than women when they see me.
I hate nothing more than myself.
When i take selfies of myself, then yes. I always understand why things are the way they are.
Of course
JFL at believing in online IQ tests
I am glad you've taken into consideration the things that I have said.
I know that online free IQ tests are not reliable. I even intentionally worded that out clearly to let people know that I am not yet officially tested. The key feature here though is comparison. My friend who finished college with flying colors scored average so it shows that the test is not eazy peazy. I also would like to add that I have an uncle who is officially tested in Mensa and he scored almost genius. I had him take the test and he got the same score as I did! This would suggest that if I took a Mensa test then I would also score almost genius but I am not gonna claim that is the case. Anyway for the record I am not claiming I know what number my IQ is and I wouldn't be surprised if I scored average in an official test.
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Sometimes
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No. Self-depreciation is cucked.
Yes. I’m so disgusted with myself I wish I were white.
Yes, when I see myself, I'm completely disappointed about how my face has developed as an adult. It makes me sad because I didn't look so bad when I was 18. All I want is a gf but I can't have that, actually crying right now.
I can't stand to see videos of me, photos of me, or recordings of my voice.
I am literally a disgusting person. The main reason is that I always have mucus. I blow my nose every single day. I think it's a genetic mutation I have.
To answer my question I think I am disgusting but honestly I personally don't find myself disgusting probably just because it's myself however I understand if other people would.
To answer my question I think I am disgusting but honestly I personally don't find myself disgusting probably just because it's myself however I understand if other people would.
Yep.
I don't brush my teeth as often as I should, and my living space is a pigstye. Otherwise, I just feel disappointed over the unfortunate circumstances I've had to endure.
Exactly. I also think I’m handsome as fuck even if foids think I’m ugly... anyway foids are dumb. Their reptilian brain cannot understand that chads features are archaic and we no longer need them in 2019.
no im narcicisstic
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