I believe I do actually have it after suffering for depression for a very long time. I have had depression for about 25 years now, it started when I became the rejected one in my class (as a teenager sort of).
The groups of guys rejected me and told me to "go talk with other gang" when I tried to approach them.
Women swapped boyfriends (all of them in my class, remember this happened in like early 2000s, now half of the class would be incels) while leaving me to rot. I had an oneitis I loved but she completely rejected me and dated the rest of the guys in my class.
Brutal blackpill. This is not how a human should be treated. Rejected by humanity, ofcourse depression starts to creep in.
I still get rejected. When a group of people meet, I am the one that does not get any friends, just because of my looks. I do not understand why some incels believe in God but it is their choice.
Lack of drive: I am over 30 and I am LADR now (I said NEET before, silly me). I did have a good paid job and I did travel but being so lonely and seeing so many couples and happy families around... being completely rejected by women that later on started families with other guys... a woman saying no to me is a woman saying no to my genetics. It is the natures way of saying that I am useless...
I have no energy left, I struggle to get out of bed sometimes... I wont go to the therapy or get ECT or SSRI or anything like I do not need that man, it will just give me some energy and cope for a year or two and I will be back where I am...
Zero pleasure from things: I used to travel, play games and hike. I get no pleasure from it anymore. Not even gaming. I laungh my console and I just stare at the screen and close the game, get back to bed and rot. It has been like this for a long time. I guess gaming mostly works when you are an incel in your 20s with hopes, then you realise your 20s is gone and nothing will change and you just give up on life.
No motivation: now that I think about it, I do have motivation, but it is barely there. I want to go work again just so I can save some money to surgerymaxx my face. I have missed the most important time of my life but I really want to feel loved for once. I want a woman in my life and I do not care if she got grey hair, I just want real relationship with a woman. But, sadly, the motivation is not enough at the moment, plus the amount of surgeries I need is like bonedeep...
Fatigue: yes. Stuffs that a 80-year old can do makes me need rest for 3 days. My breath is heavy and I can feel something dark and heavy on my chest (pretty much just depression).
