No need to apoligize, I am glad you are venting about your problems here. It can sometimes be too much to keep inside ones head.
And yes it is indeed awful to see everyone happy especially when it´s so beautiful outside with very hot weather and lush green vegetation. It reminds me that I am in my 20´s (I am 24) and it is in the 20´s people make memories and have the time of their lives. Like how many times haven´t you heard stories from people in their 40´ and 50´s talk about when they were young (meaning their 20´s) and they talk and talk about their adventures. They also often do this in movies, where the main character have a midlife crisis and think back of the good times in his 20´s.
