Venting Anyone else here unsure if they WANT to ascend? (genophobia, philophobia etc)

[Chopin]

I am not sure whether I'm a genophobe, a philophobe, gynophobe or whatever, but over the years I've grown a distaste and quite some fear for intimacy and sex. I'm not sure when it began but it was at least around the time I discovered hentai (around 11-12). Ever since I find real women disgusting and too uptight. But basically, It kinda frightens me to imagine myself having sex. I don't want to be naked. I don't want to see someone else naked. I don't want to be near someone else, ESPECIALLY when one or both of us are naked. Especially if I have to look at them in the eyes. I also don't want to be seen with girls because the thought of someone else thinking I have a girlfriend terrifies me and I don't even know why.
Anyone here with similar issues?

 

[Sean]

No, I'm cool with it. I feel like I'm going to leave inceldom behind very soon.

 

[Deleted member 36910]

Yes, I am very insecure because I used to be obese. Even after dropping the weight I am permanently mentally scarred and the thought of ascending fills me with dread. If the chance to ascend would appear, I would probably become a volcel. Do you feel the same way?

I also don't want to be seen with girls because the thought of someone else thinking I have a girlfriend terrifies me and I don't even know why.

Dude we're like exactly the same on this issue.

No, I'm cool with it. I feel like I'm going to leave inceldom behind very soon.

 

[Lonely4Ever]

I can only ascend with Blowjobs now (if ascension was even still possible) since I also find the irl thought of a naked girl infront of me to be weird. Also I am insecure about a couple of things about me such as a bunch of freckles on my back.

I can only imagine, if I did ascend with a GF, she would think it's weird that I don't want to be intimate with her and might think that I am cheating on her. IDK JFL

 

[Chopin]

If the chance to ascend would appear, I would probably become a volcel. Do you feel the same way?

Yes. I don't know why, but for some reason I instinctively avoid any situations where I'm close to (potentially) ascending. Also every time a girl shares a common interest in me I find a way to make her feel bad about it or make fun of her (eg. I wore a Gojira shirt one time and a girl said it's a cool shirt, but she mispronounced the name so I mocked her. She doesn't even want to talk to me anymore)
Even being a VOLcel would be involuntary for me because my instincts would force me into it.

 

[Deleted member 36910]

I instinctively avoid any situations where I'm close to ascending.

I have never been close to ascending. I was wrong, we are not the same on this issue.

 

[Chopin]

I have never been close to ascending. I was wrong, we are not the same on this issue.

Neither have I. I meant *potentially*. Sorry for the confusion.

Yes, I am very insecure because I used to be obese

I used to be quite chubby too. My friend would tell me I have the body of a potato. I am now quite skinny but that's only slightly better