Robb97
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- Apr 7, 2023
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I had one single friend when I was younger, and I'm grateful for that but I wasn't my true self around him. It felt like I was constantly trying to impress this guy, we were not on the same level.
My younger brother looked up to me. Around him I felt like I was my true self, I wasn't putting on a front. It felt amazing to have that genuine connection with another human being. But that was 15 years ago.
Nowadays it's brutal. I have done so much introspection that I'm fully aware of how over it is. My abused dog mindset doesn't even let me talk normally to my grandmother. I just can't relax around other people. This means that I will never connect with another human again. And that is really brutal. I will forever be seen as an anxious little subhuman.
At least some people here have suffered too, although never to the same extent. It feels good to read some of the stories here, especially from those who have autism as well.
Weirdly enough when I was sick I felt really good. I had stomach cramps but from time to time they stopped and in those moments I just felt at ease. I wasn't stressed out about anything. I wasn't thinking about my inceldom or how over it is for me. I just enjoyed that I wasn't in pain for once. You know it's over when being sick is the best you ever felt in a long time.
My younger brother looked up to me. Around him I felt like I was my true self, I wasn't putting on a front. It felt amazing to have that genuine connection with another human being. But that was 15 years ago.
Nowadays it's brutal. I have done so much introspection that I'm fully aware of how over it is. My abused dog mindset doesn't even let me talk normally to my grandmother. I just can't relax around other people. This means that I will never connect with another human again. And that is really brutal. I will forever be seen as an anxious little subhuman.
At least some people here have suffered too, although never to the same extent. It feels good to read some of the stories here, especially from those who have autism as well.
Weirdly enough when I was sick I felt really good. I had stomach cramps but from time to time they stopped and in those moments I just felt at ease. I wasn't stressed out about anything. I wasn't thinking about my inceldom or how over it is for me. I just enjoyed that I wasn't in pain for once. You know it's over when being sick is the best you ever felt in a long time.