Discussion Anyone else feel like the blackpill became their entire identity?

[Pancakecel]

The BP explained a lot of my life. But after years of reading this stuff daily, it feels like I let it become my entire identity.

Everything in my head is now:

• looks
• genetics
• rank
• what I’ll never have
• how people see me

My brain never shuts up. Even when I try to distract myself, there’s this constant voice reminding me of my place and my flaws. Any moment of calm just gets dismissed as “cope.”

Before I found all this, I was still miserable and unattractive, but I at least had some hope. Now it feels like I trained my mind to expect nothing but negativity 24/7.

I’m not denying reality or saying “just be positive bro!” I’m just questioning whether being immersed in this mindset all day every day is actually helping, or if it’s just turning understanding into self-punishment.

Part of me honestly regrets discovering all this stuff, ignorance really is bliss. At the same time, it gave me answers, and it’s the only place I’ve ever really related to others. Feels like a double-edged sword.

Sometimes I wish I could go back to being a little kid, and not so hyper-aware of everything.

Curious if anyone else feels the same.

 

[H8mychudlife]

You cant ignore it when it's right in your face 24/7 and being bluepilled would lead to worse fates

 

[Caichan]

My brain never shuts up. Even when I try to distract myself, there’s this constant voice reminding me of my place and my flaws. Any moment of calm just gets dismissed as “cope.”

This. It leads me to not enjoying anything throughout the entire day. I can’t go 10 minutes without being reminded

 

[Pancakecel]

You cant ignore it when it's right in your face 24/7 and being bluepilled would lead to worse fates

True, there is no winning

 

[Dr. Autismo]

The blackpill and hatred has fully replaced whatever personality I used to have

 

[Autist]

The blackpill is based on my life

 

[Animecel2D]

I am one with the blackpill. There is no going back

 

[St3v3Cel]

The blackpill is preferable to the bluepill. Accepting normies "dis y u inkwell' reasons will break your mind. Genuinely trying to believe that it's "just your pERsonality bro" will make you end up in the loony bin.

 

[pyromancer1234]

You cant ignore it when it's right in your face 24/7 and being bluepilled would lead to worse fates

Exactly. It's no different than and just as inescapable as how having a terminal disease becomes your identity. Hard to ignore when it colors every pillar and aspect of your life.

 

[Chirag gupta]

My life was hell before i found the blackpill. it just gave it a name

 

[Pancakecel]

The blackpill is preferable to the bluepill. Accepting normies "dis y u inkwell' reasons will break your mind. Genuinely trying to believe that it's "just your pERsonality bro" will make you end up in the loony bin.

Well obviously, that's not what I'm saying though

 

[DeformedDysgenicCel]

The BP explained a lot of my life. But after years of reading this stuff daily, it feels like I let it become my entire identity.

Everything in my head is now:

• looks
• genetics
• rank
• what I’ll never have
• how people see me

My brain never shuts up. Even when I try to distract myself, there’s this constant voice reminding me of my place and my flaws. Any moment of calm just gets dismissed as “cope.”

Before I found all this, I was still miserable and unattractive, but I at least had some hope. Now it feels like I trained my mind to expect nothing but negativity 24/7.

I’m not denying reality or saying “just be positive bro!” I’m just questioning whether being immersed in this mindset all day every day is actually helping, or if it’s just turning understanding into self-punishment.

Part of me honestly regrets discovering all this stuff, ignorance really is bliss. At the same time, it gave me answers, and it’s the only place I’ve ever really related to others. Feels like a double-edged sword.

Sometimes I wish I could go back to being a little kid, and not so hyper-aware of everything.

Curious if anyone else feels the same.

Can relate. Also i don't stop thinking about .is and the blackpill. Like you said, it's a double-edged sword.
When something brutal happens to me, i always see that the blackpill can't leave me alone.
Blackpill is in my head everyday. And it doesn't stop from further growth anyway.

 

[Todd Thundercock]

No. Blackpill has only completed the destruction of my need to socialize, not that there was much anyway, and may have just been conditioning from others constantly telling me that it's impossible to be happy not socializing.

I also view everything under the blackpill lens of status and looks. That's reality. It's like getting mad at the weather.

The blackpill is preferable to the bluepill. Accepting normies "dis y u inkwell' reasons will break your mind. Genuinely trying to believe that it's "just your pERsonality bro" will make you end up in the loony bin.

Also, this. Anything is preferable to going back to that.

 

[The Scarlet Prince]

I am the black-pill and the black-pill is me.

 

[autisticsoy]

yes my genetics wont allow me to be bluepilled knowing if I was just born slightly different, it can averse what happened

 

[Grodd]

It's ingrained into my psyche at this point

 

[Mango]

You may be done with the blackpill but the blackpill isn’t done with you

 

[cunnylover69]

I don't think its possible to escape these thoughts. Identity is not formed out of thin air, it is formed through experiences. The blackpill is just a set of truths that we internalize after living without any love or intimacy for a long period of time.

As much as I try to cope and ignore that part of life it doesn't matter what I do because deep down I know everything is just a cope for the fact that I have no prospects of finding a mate. Even sex robots will probably not eliminate these thoughts completely even if they can provide better experiences than real foids because I will still be aware of the fact that I am not desirable to other humans.

The need to be loved is ultimately out of our control. If there was some kind of lobotomy that could remove that desire from my mind I would pay alot of money for it.

 

[Chud Norris72]

I even use our slang irl with one friend that is red-pilled.

 

[Itsoverm8]

Life is the blackpill

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

Life is the blackpill

 

[Hoodpreet]

I guess I’m a rare case in that I feel the BP brought me a little more mental peace. I had the most existential crises when I was in my redpill phase, because I blamed personal agency for my life being the way it was.

Once I realized so much of it came down to factors out of my control, it made things a little easier on my mind. Even if I’m still miserable

 

[literallyretarded]

blackpill has consumed me as there is nothing else to think about expect how shit my life is.

 

[Hoodpreet]

I guess I’m a rare case in that I feel the BP brought me a little more mental peace. I had the most existential crises when I was in my redpill phase, because I blamed personal agency for my life being the way it was.

Once I realized so much of it came down to factors out of my control, it made things a little easier on my mind. Even if I’m still miserable

I guess in my case I always perceived the difference between the social/sexual “haves” and “have nots,” even if I didn’t know what to correctly attribute the cause to