Clavicus Vile
I sold your soul for a daedric fleshlight
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My doctors have been trying to get me on them, telling me that I’m depressed. I refuse to take those though.
I don’t want artificial happiness, the things that would make me genuinely happy I will never have so I’d rather stay how I am. I don’t wanna feel good when my life is shit.
And I can cope well enough on my own, going outside feels great despite me being mogged, feeling the warm or cool fresh air against my face, gently rubbing a tree leaf feeling it’s papery texture, observing local wildlife, walking and thinking, playing video games, binge watching, etc.
I doubt I even really have depression, I’m too active I feel like, and I still find enjoyment in some things. And most of the time I feel extreme rage more than I do sadness. And you don’t have to have depression to wanna kill yourself.
I don’t think my brain is chemically depressed, it’s simply natural to be unhappy when you won’t get to experience so much of what most people get to.
I don’t want artificial happiness, the things that would make me genuinely happy I will never have so I’d rather stay how I am. I don’t wanna feel good when my life is shit.
And I can cope well enough on my own, going outside feels great despite me being mogged, feeling the warm or cool fresh air against my face, gently rubbing a tree leaf feeling it’s papery texture, observing local wildlife, walking and thinking, playing video games, binge watching, etc.
I doubt I even really have depression, I’m too active I feel like, and I still find enjoyment in some things. And most of the time I feel extreme rage more than I do sadness. And you don’t have to have depression to wanna kill yourself.
I don’t think my brain is chemically depressed, it’s simply natural to be unhappy when you won’t get to experience so much of what most people get to.





