mistersinister
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"I never make posts like this. I feel like absolute shit. I just want to crawl in a hole in die..... I am in my mid 20's and I am going to school for a very hard and in-demand major that has a high employment rate. I consider myself a motivated person. I am not optimistic by any means, I consider myself more of a pessimist, but I am playing life on hard mode and I can't take it anymore. I was a student with a 3.8 GPA. I study very very hard. I am taking a very difficult class right now and I have failed two tests in a row already while my friends have passed them. I studied my ass off for these tests. I really sat in my room and just studied for hours on end. I am doing really well in all my other classes, but this class I am hurting on really badly. I have two more tests to go, if I fuck up the next two tests, this class would be the first one I will have failed. I don't have time for failing. I am in my mid 20's and my life sucks. My girlfriend left me for another guy around my birthday. I have been trying to start dating again (I know, its obviously a bad time for that), but 90% of women don't want to be my girlfriend. I have been told I have a very attractive face, but I am 5'5" and balding (I cover my bald spot up with a product that works pretty well). My genes are shit. My parents should of thought twice before giving birth to a child that is going to have shit genetics. I thought the only thing going for me is the hope of getting a career and money. I am fucking this up too. I am having problems with my roommates about trivial shit and I feel like shit is continually crash down on me. On top of all this, I started doing drugs again (opiates, prescription painkillers). I am starting to become broke. I have never seen over $3000 in my bank account in my entire life. I can't handle this life anymore. I don't have the balls to kill myself, I wish someone can just end my misery. I have shitty genes and I am stupid on top of this. I thought I was smart. I got A's in all my physics and calculus classes, but I am fucking this class up and I studied harder and longer than most people! Hard work seems like it can't take me to where I need to be. I fucking choke on exams. I feel like everyone hates me and everyone has a better life than I do. I see all these guys at school that are tall and have hott ass girlfriends and I say to myself "its ok, if I can get money somehow or sell my personality, I can get a hott chick!" It's fucking bullshit. Girls don't reply my messages after a date because they see how short I am. I can't stand being a human anymore. I am a grown man and I am fucking crying in my room by myself. I never go out and I don't have that many friends, only the ones in school. I don't think I will ever find a wife or be successful. I don't want to live my life working as a cashier, server or salesman. I would rather choose death. How can you motivate a dead man? Please end my life. I am serious, I was born into the wrong body, universe, and I started out with a shitty deck of metaphorical cards. It seems like everyone is better off than I am. Please give me some hope. What do I need to do to get myself back together? I hate myself and I hate being a human.... NOTE: I fucking hate beta males. I guess I am one, therefore I hate myself. I hate the "its ok to be friend" mentality. I have a lot of testosterone and want to fuck all the time, but my body looks beta. So go ahead, call me a beta cuck. I would swallow the red pill if I could fucking find it."